Will this continue forever? A "dirty s**" confession.. Ok. Here we go.. I feel like I'm mentally disturbed... The things I like and I want to do during s** is not so usual. I'm into the dirtiest things.. Not like pain or torture stuff. But dirty, nasty things.. You can imagine... (P******, spitting, foot, even scat.) But there aren't a single girl that would do these stuff on where I live. I've never even heard of a girl that does anything like that. I had some girlfriends and slept with most of them. But, I never enjoyed it. So I started not dating to girls that I know won't do these things. And day by day I'm losing interest to them.. But I don't like boys too.. If I'm losing interest to girls and don't like boys, what will I become? I really need to find that girl. Or I'm afraid, I'm gonna get in some serious trouble..

:( I got upset over something that had nothing to do with my boyfriend. I became more upset when he just ignored me when I wanted comfort. It started a fight. At one point he went outside and I looked through his phone. There were several girls listed under male names. The texts I read were kind of heart breaking. I texted all of them saying \'I love cheating on my girlfriend :)\'. And then I deleted all the texts. I left his place a few hours ago. Last I saw him he was sitting on his phone. He poured out all my rum. So while he was pouting in his room I pour out all his salt, pepper, other seasonings, rubbing alcohol (he uses it to clean his bong) and I took all the lighters. I put all the seasoning containers back in the original spot. They\'re just empty now. I also hid his propane tank and phone charger. It\'s not that well hidden. If he tries he will find it. I\'m not going to say bad things about him to his friends. I deleted his number so I can\'t bother him. I left his Warframe clan. He doesn\'t care if he never hears from me again. I turn to the internet for ranting because he lacks the empathy it takes to listen to someone emotionally. I stuck around when he tried to hang himself. I\'ve had to deal with his parents. I originally got mad because he refuses to talk to me unless I\'m all chipper and wanting to play video games. It hurts that he\'s supposed to be my best friend but he won\'t try to help me. This isn\'t the first time he\'s ignored me. He gets mad if I don\'t put everything on hold to deal with his problems. I\'ve tried to explain this to him, but secret texts and league of legends is much more important.

:( I got upset over something that had nothing to do with my boyfriend. I became more upset when h...

:( I got upset over something that had nothing to do with my boyfriend. I became more upset when h...

i must have got a the bottle of water last night to drink and then I found it in the bed wet, it all...