you hurt the ones a i love

i'm sorry to my family and my best friends. for bringing him into their lives by letting him into mine. he ate christmas dinner with my family on christmas eve, said he had to leave to babysit, and would come back right after. never came back. never called. slept with another girl. called two days later. acted like everything was normal. i found out about the cheating. broke up. eventually forgave him after he cried and begged for a long time. started over. while he was shoveling my parents driveway to prove that he was a good guy, i went through his phone, found txts bragging about a girl he had slept with two days ago. i lost it. he convinced me it was his friend. i asked all his friends. they were all in on it. i believed him. found out it was true at my surprise birthday party, to which he showed up 2 hours late, after he got his friend to pick me up instead of him because he was 'busy'. he never got me a birthday present. or valentines present. he brought his cousins to my house. trashed it. hurt my brother.     i'm sorry i brought him into our lives, and even more sorry that i let him back in when he could've been gone. i'm so sorry.