why do I bother trying to patch up things with people who I have told off anyway, I spent all of the last few weeks feeling angery, guilty, embarrased and addicted to stupid emails to old friends just because a few sent facebook invite or other social media I start sending emails to them and heaps on my list yet I know few of them really care how I am or would even bother to read my dumb ramblings of a crazy woman anyway.i send emails to heaps of people I told off or dumped as friends and I hope they just ignore my emails like I do to theirs, I ignore other people emails and massages a lot now, I hope they all bounce and she never reads any emails I have sent her lets hope that she doesn't read any of the emails I send her, I feel so embarrassed the next hour or the day wondering why I sent them to so many people what I expect to achieve out of them?