I don't know I think even adults struggle knowing where you fit in when your bullied and pushed around everywhere and don't have employment and good healthy relationships. I became more confused when I got to 35 not married not having kids or job and questioning why did I bother going to university, why can't I get ahead? worse than when I was a teen. if you're not working and not a mother by 35 in the awful country Australia I live you're a nobody that a lot of doctors won't treat properly and with respect and with dignity, you don't get the same access to legal rights or medical access as other people and special "mother" treatments and treated like you know anything. unless you have given birth here you know nothing and are good for nothing! a lot of single mothers and obvious disability people with server disability don't know their boundaries and limitations here they are not taught enough "sit down and mind your own business and shut up" it really makes you feel hurt, weird and like you must be extra stupid when deformed intellectually disabled people want to give you advice as if you have never had a thought of your own. I was at university I don't know about kelly if she did or didn't but did she ever stop to think I had tried that and already thought of that. I am clever enough to know I don't know it all. but intellectually disabled don't.

I can't wait for my grandparents to die I can't wait for my grandparents to die, as bad as it sounds. I have already been mourning their deaths in therapy, because at one point I was scared to come to the house and find one of them dead. But they seem to be getting healthier and healthier. I have lived with them all of my life, have tried to move but financial issues have plagued me. Now I realize what has to be done, but I have basically become their primary caregiver/go-to person when they need things because I'm here. Also, I lost my job at the start of this year so right now I'm unemployed but seriously on the hunt, and have let them know I will eventually be working, and getting out of this house. My dog also died last month, after being diagnosed with an illness the same week I was fired. That almost destroyed me and I will forever be sad about my dog than I would about them passing at this point. The week after my dog died, my grandfather wrecked his car, again, driving like an idiot, and part of me hoped he was gone when I had to drive to the scene. He was fine, and I was angry because of it. He no longer has a car and I have to drive everywhere for them, mainly because my grandmother demands everything despite what others have to do and will cause people to make unnecessary trips. She will also guilt trip you if you try to tell her how much sense it does not make and if you try to come to a sensible resolution. She will also critique the things you buy, but will not come with you to do her own damn shopping. She is not crippled, just lazy and wants to rule from a chair. She also has a shrill voice and stays calling my name and I HATE it. I also resent her for accusing a family member of molesting me as a child, which is totally false. She only said it out of spite because she is angry with the person for something that happened between THEM years ago that she won't forgive. So I will definitely be glad when her evil ass is gone. Also, I have an amazing boyfriend who understands my situation as he also helps to take care of an elderly family member. He is way more patient and calmer than I am, bless him. But he has seen firsthand the crap I've gone through and he does get it and many people won't. My bf wants to eventually get married and have kids, but sometimes I don't even want kids because my grandparents f****** act like them and I know I will need time to decompress before taking that step. There's other family that can help out and have offered to help, but my grandparents do not want to ask anyone else but me. I don't even want anything from them when they're gone. I just want my freedom so I can live my life like a normal adult, so my anxiety and depression levels can go down, and so that I can get a full night's sleep without my grandfather banging on my door (he doesn't know how to knock) whenever he wants something.

I can't wait for my grandparents to die I can't wait for my grandparents to die, as bad as it sounds...

I can never rely on my aunty or karen to do what they say. I don't think I will bother them asking t...