when I worked for a doctor sometimes I stayed back late at night if he wanted me to and had late patients which was not a lot. he would always take a hour lunch break and the other doctor as well would leave a lot at lunch time so I was left with running the office and sometimes I didn't even take a break but I have always been l this, when I worked in hospitality in a 4 star hotel cleaning often I would use my lunch break to get through more rooms and skip my lunch often, I would start at 6.45aam and just work straight through til 2 or 3pm. when I worked in hostessing I was left with security of about 4 huge display luxuary homes I had keys to and I would just be able to read after I did my work that was basic as , all I had to do was put a heap of brochures for the archeitects and builders together and their home catalogues and put sales leads up for the sale team so I would sit and read all my human rights law books which was huge books. the course nearly killed me and the exams and my greatest issues were everynight leaving worrying if I had made sure the securty alarms were on right. I often had nightmares of the dam things going off after I left. but the houses were empty and I kept them clean and most people near asked me to show them around the houses but wanted to see the floor plans and price lists more. so I learnt to read a lot of archiects notes and sometimes they or the manager came to inspect on the office and see how I was going also. I was left completely to my own supervision. one job I did the banking for them and I think its weird if I was so trusted then why did everyone walk out on me when I did my justice exam and needed references and its like why then can't I get jobs I apply for. I feel like I am discredited and black listed it was very hurtful in 2005 when everyone just up and left !

when I worked for a doctor sometimes I stayed back late at night if he wanted me to and had late patients which was not a lot. he would always take a hour lunch break and the other doctor as well would leave a lot at lunch time so I was left with running the office and sometimes I didn't even take a break but I have always been l this, when I worked in hospitality in a 4 star hotel cleaning often I would use my lunch break to get through more rooms and skip my lunch often, I would start at 6.45aam and just work straight through til 2 or 3pm. when I worked in hostessing I was left with security of about 4 huge display luxuary homes I had keys to and I would just be able to read after I did my work that was basic as , all I had to do was put a heap of brochures for the archeitects and builders together and their home catalogues and put sales leads up for the sale team so I would sit and read all my human rights law books which was huge books. the course nearly killed me and the exams and my greatest issues were everynight leaving worrying if I had made sure the securty alarms were on right. I often had nightmares of the dam things going off after I left. but the houses were empty and I kept them clean and most people near asked me to show them around the houses but wanted to see the floor plans and price lists more. so I learnt to read a lot of archiects notes and sometimes they or the manager came to inspect on the office and see how I was going also. I was left completely to my own supervision. one job I did the banking for them and I think its weird if I was so trusted then why did everyone walk out on me when I did my justice exam and needed references and its like why then can't I get jobs I apply for. I feel like I am discredited and black listed it was very hurtful in 2005 when everyone just up and left !
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