deliberately turning down job offers and dates while thin?

how can someone so spaz get such a huge oversized ego as that dumb bullying bombastic bitch kelly anyway? what ever happened to manners and politeness. her and margie were plotting with anita against me with people. she was setting me up to be abused and hurt I knew she was doing something evil.

how can someone so spaz get such a huge oversized ego as that dumb bullying bombastic bitch kelly an...

isabelle was right you are a slut whore retard. even your own daughter thinks your a whore spastic dog joyce. smerky cunning clever clever joyce !!! taking down people but have you wondered where all your emenies go. the more information I get on you the better I really do feel about myself! I hope someone kills you and hangs you for the abuse you have done one day. your insane evil joyce poorter. dirty woman.

isabelle was right you are a slut whore retard. even your own daughter thinks your a whore spastic d...

I always thought I would marry a professional or academic teacher but it just seems that I am the one always ignored as if I am so low IQ since I was a child the "spastic" and "retard" labels were something I learnt to live with at school and just by how relatives treated me, the kids at school were mean and would just say the words but the relatives were more passive however the message came across loud what they thought of me. I think most of my life its been pretty one sided that I have always made the mistake of speaking well mostly of others, even down to joyce her daughter called her a slut and whore and I said "oh no you are not like that" but I was wrong, I learnt to laugh at most of the negative labels but there were and are still times it hurts and as I have got on more and life not in a situation I wanted, like I wanted to be married and with children back 20-15 years ago I feel "gee people really must see me as so spastic - like as if she could marry or expect this or that?" she must be a real spaz etc I am sure they think it about me more and more now, I don't understand why people are suck assholes to kind people like me. I just think I should more of a mean bitch to people but it does not come easy to me or my conscience to be nasty rude deliberately hurtful or vendictive or even provocative, I think I should have been I might have been respected more by other women and men. I think I was too shy, too easy going and too conforming for others abuses but I never knew that it was ok to be rude and mean and deliberately evil. I should have really stabbed the knife in to a lot of people and regret not doing it now. the worst part of having a too well exercised conscience !

I always thought I would marry a professional or academic teacher but it just seems that I am the on...