des has a illness and I dont have to forgive! so shove it MOS

I have only just started nursing diploma and got a long way to go. I don't care what anyone thinks of me. I just don't really care anymore. I could have done a nursing degree years ago but I knocked it back because it was so expensive and we just couldn't afford it, much like law school. what you can't afford you can't afford and if you can't get work while studying that is worse still. its not like I can or could have been a moonlighting porn star or prostitute to pay for my way through university. I dropped out so many times I could make a tragedy drama of it. I just got ill. weird mysterious viruses causing pain like non-paralysis polo and rash vomiting bugs that lasted for ages. I would like to see others cope with it and see how it feels. worst part is now I am either a really early riser like 3 or 4am or a really late slow to start riser at 8 or 9am and each day its like "fuck hell can't believe I made it alive today?" and I get heart palpitations that are not nice most mornings.

I have only just started nursing diploma and got a long way to go. I don't care what anyone thinks o...

my sister inlaw is only a success because she got married and my brother made a succeess out of her she couldn't do it all alone! certain can't be much of a mother because my brother did all the looking after the kids she was so sneaky con artist to get through things using people. she wonders why my family don't like her but her verbal abuse was just too much in 2003 and that us and them mentality bullying she was doing all the time at my sister and I all the time. her competition for attention and control freak and shocking mother. I looked after her kid who was a mongrel child to be honest a awful child a true reflection of her mother. she used me when I was sick. all that time I had polio and vomiting and gyno illnesses she used me to look after her kid never gave me any money for it. then treats us like dirt. but that is how her family are that is how they act.

my sister inlaw is only a success because she got married and my brother made a succeess out of her ...

I was exposed to bird flu and swine flu and also someone with meningococcal at internation school I was at . and the rash I had the doctors could not work out all the vomiting and neck and migraine pain after so many ct scans and mri's and blood and skin cutting tests. it was like I mild syptoms of things, and I got a massive infection and liver fluke infection and then the rape and more viruses and so many antibiotics. I hate people who make out I am just this lazy loser. I would like to see others cope without any support or friends or man to be stability support like I was forced to.

I was exposed to bird flu and swine flu and also someone with meningococcal at internation school I...