piss off to rose roger & allen & kenny bearbum. the deli's from hellies!

recently I had a lump come up in the vaginal libia area and my gp gave me some ointment but even now the lump has gone but its itchy and bleeds from toilet paper and sanitary napkins. I want to go back to my specialist in the city but its so expensive all the specialist i see, I need teeth fixed, xrays and bloods and then ent and psychologist and remedial massage and physio, all this adds up. I have to space out appointments to afford them. people don't understand that on a single disability pension i get very limited money. it was even worse when on unemployment and austudy was less again. I regret bothering ever going to university it was the biggest waste of govt money and my time. I should have gone overseas and partied and found a husband back when it was in to marry. I see the mistakes now that I made but I had no proper help from anyone.

recently I had a lump come up in the vaginal libia area and my gp gave me some ointment but even now...

because of all the ct scans and xrays I had when I was sick I was warned about too much radiology exposure and all the MRIs are not as bad but cost more or the ultrasounds now there is new xrays as well but I have to have a opg done for my dentist and I have bee putting it off and I am always worried about my brain and spine and leg from the car accident, fearing calcification in the tibia I have a dint in the bone and I worry a lot about cancer tumors and I get leg pain and start having bad dreams a lot and fear it so much I have told my gp and specialists a few times how afraid I am, and this fixation of cancer and someone wanting me dead, god knows I have never been allowed to live while alive anyway. so I don't want to die without experiencing something better then the gargable people have dished out at me. I don't have mammograms I just have ultrasounds to avoid the radiology harm and I would give photo-acoustic imaging a go if it reduces radioactivity put on my body because my last ct scan was terrifying afterwards my brain went funny. I don't want to go through that again.

because of all the ct scans and xrays I had when I was sick I was warned about too much radiology ex...

Nobody would believe me but, there's a macabre creepy 60+ man watching me, my private life, a perv and a psychopath. There's this really gruesome side of him from years of accumulated consumed violence, which he is addicted to. But psychopath in this case means: morbid(not as in fat), sordid, macabre, not just without empathy or guilt. Literally gives me nightmares (of the worst sort, the kind you wake up sweating and wanting to hide or run as if the nightmare was still happening), there's a chance he really invaded my normally random dreams and transformed it into a nightmare. I know females are prone to be more paranoid about psychopaths than men but not a paranoid lady here. I have a good grasp on reality. It just happens I am surrounded by danger and a bit of psychopaths here and there. He is not a relative friend or whatever. I am not talking about social media or anything like that I really mean it WATCHING ME. He is waiting for the right moment to catch me. yuk

Nobody would believe me but, there's a macabre creepy 60+ man watching me, my private life, a perv a...