mary p's drunken nut mother and violent criminal crazy sister who abused me.

I feel like I want to fall over I feel so hot and exhausted.

I feel like I want to fall over I feel so hot and exhausted.

so can you just stop the assumptions Back at the very end of my senior year of high school I decided that I wanted to try smoking. I liked the idea of inhaling and exhaling smoke, it seemed like a visually beautiful and relaxing activity. I asked someone to try and get us marijuana since I knew he could probably get it fairly easily. I started smoking 3 or 4 times a week for a little over 2 months and stopped the week before going off to college. Now, during my senior year I also had quite a bit of stuff happen. Early in the year, my family found out that my father (whom had visitation rights for me and my older brother when we were young) had molested me more than a few times over the course of several years. I had gotten over it, but my family wanted me to go to counseling after they found out. A few months later I got news that my father had committed suicide. Although I was upset, I felt more at ease and not so bad for avoiding him. It didn't take me long to accept it. My father's death was about 2 months before I had the idea to smoke. I went to visit my councilor a little while into starting college and we ended up talking about how I had smoked marijuana. She seemed concerned and was hinting at the idea that I may have done it to "escape" or as a way of coping with the events of my senior year. I tried to explain to her that was not the reasoning, but she seemed doubtful. She's not the only one who thinks that I smoked to "escape" I'm not easily offended, but this is something that really gets to me. There is an assumption that "it was all too much" and that I felt the need to resort to a false sense of happiness. This isn't true at all and I wish people would stop viewing it that way. I understand that there are people who fall prey to this, but I am not that weak or pathetic. I smoked because I wanted to, not because I was depressed, stressed, or pressured into it. It was my own decision, be it not the smartest one, that I took action on.

so can you just stop the assumptions Back at the very end of my senior year of high school I decid...

Relative Stalker Rant He is my half brother from a different mom. Eversince we got in touch he's been going overboard. He likes and comments any and everything within the second I post, calls, messages, texts me everyday almost every hour asking what I'm doing and if I'm on facebook for let's say 5 literal minutes, he brings that up when I do talk to him and asks what I was doing at the time. I feel like a b**** but it'd getting out of control. And when I make it obvious to him that I'm busy he doesn't get it. Like I'll say "I'm busy right now, have to take care of kids", he goes "Okay." and keeps talking. It takes me literally 8 times to tell him I'm busy before he gets upset and makes a sad voice, the one where you can tell they're purposely wanting you to know they're upset, and says "Oh...I guess I'll talk to you later then." I'm a parent and I'm usually busy taking care of my kid most of the day and he keeps blasting my phone. He has called me ten times within one hour once and when I finally texted him to ask what was up he was like, "Oh nothing just seeing what you were up to". I love him and all but s*** enough is enough. I've talked to him about not getting all moody if I'm busy and cant answer his calls many times but the next day he just forgets and does the same s*** all over again. He also throws pity parties and tries to drag me into depression with him and I just can't have that at the current time. Everyone I know has started to notice how he has been, even our own dad. I wanna be cool with him but he just can't understand that my world doesn't revolve around him.

Relative Stalker Rant He is my half brother from a different mom. Eversince we got in touch he's bee...