dear joyce you have all the men while I just have a hair brush to fuck with .... I fucked so many hard phallic objects on pillows all through my 20s, 30s and 40s and if my walls could talk they would make me a freak whore the way I fucked and fucked for hours alone in my room like heather at the bootcamp told me to every afternoon spent time making yourself more relaxed and calm and sensual she said. I fuck to porn alone for the last 10 years since I turned 35. I used to sometimes drink and get drunk in my room and get on top of my hairbrush that fitted my pussy so well place it on the pillow and fuck and fuck for ages and I would hit and slap and do ugly faces as I fucked away alone at the posters of a band who were taunting me from my local school. the best masturbation fuck I had was I spent a whole night in a storm and the thunder was so loud i could really make the bed rock and no one would hear and I had a portable gaslight on and I pretended I was having a romantic sexy love making night with a hot Spanish man or noble handsome English man and I used to count the slides into my vagina some nights it was thousands for hours and hours in the dim light. I want to do it more. I wish I had a room of my own to do it its exercise to me. I always wanted a guy to fuck with me who was hot as but I didn't have the skills of how to get those ones so I stopped trying with most men after a few set backs.