I'm not sure why I feel like I don't matter. Actually, I know exactly why I feel this way. I go to work, doing a pointless job. A job I hate, with a team I hate, and a boss I hate. Where nothing I say makes any difference. Then I come home, and my wife treats me the same way. Nothing I say makes any difference. No suggestions I make matter. I don't matter to my mom. I don't matter to my family. I never have. In the end, it's just me. Me and my cat...who my wife wants to kill. In 19 weeks I'm going to have a baby. I should be thrilled. But why would I be when my wife says "it's MY kid", insinuating it's not also mine? Why would I be when I don't have any say in anything that's done for him. I don't get to pick his name. I don't get to pick the nursery. I don't get to pick anything because she has her own ideas, and none of mine matter. I don't matter. How does the life I've worked so hard for, suck so terribly? I want to run away. I want to disappear

I'm not sure why I feel like I don't matter. Actually, I know exactly why I feel this way. I go to work, doing a pointless job. A job I hate, with a team I hate, and a boss I hate. Where nothing I say makes any difference. Then I come home, and my wife treats me the same way. Nothing I say makes any difference. No suggestions I make matter. I don't matter to my mom. I don't matter to my family. I never have. In the end, it's just me. Me and my cat...who my wife wants to kill. In 19 weeks I'm going to have a baby. I should be thrilled. But why would I be when my wife says "it's MY kid", insinuating it's not also mine? Why would I be when I don't have any say in anything that's done for him. I don't get to pick his name. I don't get to pick the nursery. I don't get to pick anything because she has her own ideas, and none of mine matter. I don't matter. How does the life I've worked so hard for, suck so terribly? I want to run away. I want to disappear
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