I am really trying to fight this reaction to the flu injection, straight away I got a flooding to the brain like wet brain sydrome again. I feel so scared I am going to die and I have to have another blood test and the choking fits in my sleep really frighten me and chest pain. i have had dizziness and vertigo on the bus the other day and migraine head pain. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2FgAHpR0ds&t=331s with my neck vertibrae and my mastoid I know I was told it was not showing signs of infection but it felt like a bubble burst in my ear drum or mastiod. no one is telling me much but that i am over reacting but choking and waking to gasping calling out to my mum trying to tell her in your sleep is not normal.

there is few words to destribe this heat here, other then I just can't cope with it anymore. I want to move to a cooler climate and for my health sake I can't cope anymore with this lifestyle and his heat climate and poverty and I want to move from this hell hole in the bayside. its a morbid hell hole and I know there is a better place for me where my skills and values can be appreciated because its just not in this town for last 25 years or more. it was hell in Ipswich. the poverty and unemployment and struggle, we never owned a car and had to walk everywhere in the heat, one year we had to do heaps of letterbox dropping just to buy groceries and sand for a dodgy old 2nd hand pool we were given that never had a proper filter or fence. we never had money we were always on pitiful low wages . my dad was always on a peasants wages which I think was immoral we couldn't even afford sanitary napkins and when my dad was found on the office floor at the football club where he was working due to some big time rich football players who spiked his drinks - they caused him to have a stroke and collapse at work. they thought it was funny to see a married man with kids struggling like hell we had no food no xmas we were homeless and had to live in a tin hunt with no bedroom my sister and I shared a single bed on a veranda for months til we found a rental place - we had nothing. we still have next to nothing. all the promises that the ALP made to young people about education and jobs never helped us. we were sold a lie about education at unviersity and we were sold a lie with this old house. we tortured and sold a lie about so many things. life has just been one huge poverty depression illness and fear torture struggle. no hope of a better life in this dirty old place. the govt should get off their cunt holes and fix the health system here - where there are already hospitals they are going to have to build them up more for population. the shops here are shit. the food and rseturants are shit. the discrimination and poverty for single disability abused women is just disgusting. how a society allows so many white single disability women to be isolated and rejected and abused is something this govt has not addressed enough. most of the political figures don't know real struggle and poverty and sufffering. they have no concept of it because most of them are bullies and they need to bully to keep up their images and lifestyle and fake images and their not happy or content people, they are not good people. they have no idea of the real world. they just know dick/cunt and fucking and wage coming in have no idea how it is for people like me or other people struggling. I hate them all. they should learn what its like to struggle and live in suffering and pain and being bullied. I am sick of bullies. I have no sympathy for them.

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