men didn't notice me enough at work and college and I was not being treated how I expected to be valued, no one was showing that I was valued at all. not one person was demonstrating value in me. I have never been a liked person, I was never a liked child, most places I have I have been bullied and its been boring and painful and not lived up to expectations- ken didn't live up to anything a quality men would. no man around me demonstrated to me quality inside myself or worth and not enough men showed interest in me as a teen or young woman and I dont understand why.