i have deep animosities towards the catholic church and their abuse and neglect of my sexual abuse issues, down to the point i didn't even have sanitary napkins a lot as a teen and just their abusive ways and how they favored helping certain people and you always have to prove your godliness to the nuns and priests and if the truth be known I am more without sin and live more holy then they could. I am angry at the church and feel they let me down.