i have to hide my physical and emotional pain to my father because of his cancer and other problems and I have to hide my pains to my mother and other people and I was putting on the biggest fake smiles for years that got me no where. I did it because I was told to by karen and I think she was wrong. I did it in spite of others hurting me, I kept pushing myself to smile so someone new around the corner would love me and no one did but I can't as much anymore.