there is no enjoyment to look forward to in life, I have given up on believing some man will love me. joyce was right I am so ugly I have to bark like a dog for a man to love me. she didn't need to tell me that I already knew I was ugly but she didn't have to add insult to injury and enjoy seeing my university and romance and health failures like some sexual pervert voyuer needing to watch me go through things to make her feel better about herself. I still can't see how it helps her or me for me to be left on the shelf in every way possible and not allowed a husband or children or friends or fun. and I can't help it if I just don't love ken or russel or rick. I need a man who will act like a man and stop fighting act grown up and take responsibility for himself. I don't know why I have had to gain weight again to make sarina russo whore feel better about her ugly dogfaced self. I mean nothing could make those women feel better anyway, they just enjoy abusing certain women out of jealousy I guess I should have done it back to heaps of women myself. I wish I could bash katy back now and joyce and my sister for all the abuse and lies she has done. no one in this family loves her anymore but her delis' filipinas and I hate filipinas. they sicken me and my dad.

my mum and I joke all the time because they have meetings at the local hospital about having a meeting and they then have to have another meeting to address that meeting before and the outcomes and then another meeting about what was not dealt with, they have to have a dozen meetings to work out what little wanker with the least amount of psychiatric or psychology skills goes over to the main public hospital to talk to a patient about the medication and usually its just a young naive social worker who has absolutely no knowledge of medications at all and are useless, they are so lazy and incompetant and all the money goes to the top and all these meetings they are always at with some waste yap fest while patients wait and wait and wait and wait is down right insulting to me and to the govt tax who pay for this. and this was the same with a friend of mine who was a nurse all the govt money was going to top staff for basic things and not to patients, the exact same process and mentality was happening at russo job network and I see it happening in a lot of places. their laziness and complacency is shocking. I don't understand their morals, well they just don't have any professional or personal morals that is half the problem beside the bullying culture and its at universities and work, I left one job due to sexual bullying and I was glad because I didn't like the uppty rude rich real estate asshole males anyway and the women were all whore and compelte ugly over makeup sluts and so bitchy and there was about 1 nice young girl I worked with at the time who was the nicest of them - these guys at the real estate were earning easily a few million a week with big sales and showroom cars new bought every few months. its all a scam of moeny. that is why I was so angry when garry who sold the house all he was was a cocaine snorting boilermaker with no education and ripping people off, no morals at all. my father seen it a lot at work as well. the complete lack of personal and professional morals was shocking. completely shocking. like I say the AMA - what do they do ? they stand for nothing. lazy useless stupid poxy little boys club of losers with no morals ripping off people who are needy and being abused.

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