Odio a los ingleses y chilenos

rose might be the rose with many thorns that make people bleed but I am the blossom that failed to bloom and I blame all the people my father helped get to politics like bob gibbs and braithwaite and bill hayden who was supposed to be the next prime minister not bob hawke and other heaps of qlds political faggots as grandma would have called them, gave nothing back to my father and me, I have been so busy studying , and do I look like some fool who watches a stupid football match not likely! and well may that murduck murder smerk ! they absued me they know wht they did. god will get them! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jTvN9hDZezI&list=RDGMEMQ1dJ7wXfLlqCjwV0xfSNbAVMjTvN9hDZezI

rose might be the rose with many thorns that make people bleed but I am the blossom that failed to b...

its unlikely that I can ever be able to have epiduals with birth because of the vein narrowing disorder I have and from all injuries to my brain neurology from the mastoid infections and car accident and I have done enough study to understand this, do you understand??? do you? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkffBv4sh4U so when they talk of sinuses there are more then just nasal, hello stupids. its like having a shower turned on with hormonal issues to do with the potassium/ sodium cell pump and my heart problems from all the broken heart pain and doctors have failed to ease any pain I endure.

its unlikely that I can ever be able to have epiduals with birth because of the vein narrowing disor...

I've never met my father and from what my mum told me he was really mean. I am normally a nice girl, I'm shy and a bit anti social (though it was worse when I was younger) in the sense that I prefer hanging out by myself and staying at home than going outside or being with anyone else. But sometimes I feel like being mean. I do restrain it because I know I'll get in trouble and considering my reputation at school if I lose my friends then I'll suffer (when we have to work in pairs), it's already at a point that they only choose me if none of their other friends are there (It's my fault, I only talk to them that much in class anyway) so if I do something mean to them they'll all start ignoring me. I think I got that mean streak from my father because even before I knew about him I felt like this. Every time one of my friends has a secret, I wanna know, which is natural but when I do I just feel like telling everyone or a specific person if it's a crush or similar. I did this once before where my friend told me she liked a guy and I told this girl in Maths and the guy also sat on our table so he heard it. He thought it was a joke and after that he knew she wasn't joking. My friend found out but forgave me and said if I ever do it again she hate me. A part of me was happy she gave me another chance because I already ruined it for her by the guy knowing (and it not being a joke like he thought) and I felt sick at having those thoughts. I used to do it a lot in primary school and I loved it because even though I got told off I was never seriously reprimanded by my mum. I hate it now because I can't get away with any of that, those were my thoughts at the start of secondary school. Believe me, it's not something that I proud of. It's like those shows where there's the angel and the devil. When I get like this I take pleasure in seeing the people close to me suffer, my friends. Never my family. It's wrong and I know I should do therapy or something but my mum would never take me seriously as I didn't grow up influenced by my father and I don't want to lose this part of me. I like it. And that's what scares me the most.

I've never met my father and from what my mum told me he was really mean. I am normally a nice girl,...