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My boyfriend, fiancé now, of two years and I are finally getting married next week, and although it should be one of, if not the, happiest days of my life, I'm also dreading it. The worst part is that it's partially my fault. I've been keeping the fact that I was physically abused by my parents as a child hidden from him for the entirety of our relationship. I have large, visible scars covering a large portion of my back and stomach, and I've been terrified of letting anybody, let alone him, see them. I dress extremely modestly as a result. We haven't had sex yet because I made up that I want to wait until we're married out of fear, so he hasn't really seen my stomach or back. I know he knows I'm hiding something from him, but I'm know he's just being tactful and considerate, as he hasn't really called me out on it and has been incredibly patient with this "quirk" of mine. I know that he's going to ask about it when he finally sees them, and I'm deathly afraid that I'll ruin our wedding night. I don't want to hide it anymore, though. I love him so much, and I want to be transparent. I guess I've always been and still am afraid that he'll be deterred by either my scars or my background or both. I know he's better than that, but I can't help myself. I feel like vomiting every time I think about showing and telling him. I know I should probably tell him beforehand, but I don't think I can bring myself to. Agh!Why am I not allowed to be happy?! I'm getting married to the love of my life

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've got an abuse history too, and I know figuring out how and when to talk about it is one of the hardest things. I don't have a choice at a certain point because I have PTSD and sometimes it's more comfortable mutually for the other person to know why I don't react to some things the way you might expect than it is to just go into a flashback and give no indication of what's going on. It's hard for me but it might be harder yet for you since nothing has really forced the issue in 2 years. Telling him now is probably the best thing you could do at this point. Making it simple might be the way to go. "I was abused and I have physical scars from it and I've been too scared to show you or talk about it. I know you love me and I don't want to be scared anymore so I'm telling you now, so that I can stop worrying about my past and enjoy our present and future now."

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