i've done many bad things, and i'm repentant, i hope than

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i've done many bad things, and i'm repentant, i hope than you escueseme! thanks

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most days all I have for breakfast is either oat bran flakes and raspberries or I have oats and berries or a chai seed and cacao oats and some shredded coconut or just oats and grated apple without any sugar or egg on toast or vegimite on toast or jam on toast and a cup of tea and I will usually try to drink at least 2x750ml bottles of plain water after eating and maybe 1 cup of small teaspoon of coffee and then just keep filling up on water all day and lunch sometimes I have tuna or tin salmon and yogurt cucumber lemon sandwich or some horseradish with cucumbers or fish with just 1 slice of bran or grain bread, or a salad with tuna or cous-cous basil and cherry tomatoes, or baked beans on toast with chili flakes, or sardines on toast. the other night we had mushrooms in butter and I don't eat a lot of butter I like a little or cottage cheese or tasty cheese and crackers and cucumbers in dill, or we will have things like a apple and mint smoothie, or watermelon and mint drinks. I drink a lot of water in the afternoon and maybe a few cups of tea and have maybe a small biscut or black strap molases and saos or my lastest thing is cottage cheese with cayenne pepper on saos to get my blood thinner and it eases headaches and circulates blood better. I love occasionally to a vegimite on sao and then put the tasty cheese thin slices on top and a few splashes of worstershire sauce and garlic or himilayan salt and put in the microwave for about 40seconds it comes out nice and gooey and crisp. or we do a ginger carrot juice or a cellery and cucumber juice with lime and dandelion root and cellery seed tonic. dinner is just usually a mediterainian huge vegi mix of eggplant, zuccini and carrot and baby onions and garlic cloves, sweet potato and capsicum maybe red kale and asparagus or brocoli etc, and chicken breast without skin or a lamb chop and baked apples or chicken paramajana and olives, or we do the vegigetti and chickpea and mince and onions and tomatos, or fish like flat head or snapper etc, and steamed vegitables. we don't eat a lot of desserts but I got some cheap lammingtons the other day for my dad. I like an earl grey tea at night or a camamile and honey tea or french tea. or I just throw a jasmin or vanilla green tea bag or a strawberry herb tea bag in my water bottle to infuse the flavors for the day.

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