My first confession... So the last year has been very stressful. I got a new job and i loved it at firstvut now im not so sure...my boss is a total b** and to top it all off im not sure about anything anymore. How can you tell if your friends just dont like you anymore...i dont have anyone to talk to at all my friends would rather talk about them and their problems and when i talk about mine they just sit there. I love my family but i cant talk to them either...the things going on in my mind would scare them. I dont think about killing people, i just think why was i given this life to live. Why has my life been one giant f* up. Im 20 years old and never even been kissed. I cant talk to guys without freaking the f*** out. Im straight but yet i freak when a guy talks to me and i alway seem to attract the ones that are crerpy looking and that are 20 years older than i am. Im not a tiny girl im about 260 but at times i feel good with my body and other times i dont. Thid is my first time posting stuff like this on the internet and i just want to get everything out...

My first confession... So the last year has been very stressful. I got a new job and i loved it at firstvut now im not so sure...my boss is a total b**** and to top it all off im not sure about anything anymore. How can you tell if your friends just dont like you anymore...i dont have anyone to talk to at all my friends would rather talk about them and their problems and when i talk about mine they just sit there. I love my family but i cant talk to them either...the things going on in my mind would scare them. I dont think about killing people, i just think why was i given this life to live. Why has my life been one giant f*** up. Im 20 years old and never even been kissed. I cant talk to guys without freaking the f*** out. Im straight but yet i freak when a guy talks to me and i alway seem to attract the ones that are crerpy looking and that are 20 years older than i am. Im not a tiny girl im about 260 but at times i feel good with my body and other times i dont. Thid is my first time posting stuff like this on the internet and i just want to get everything out...

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