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I made bad things, i think that it just make me work. Taking drugs, drinking alcool, have non protected sex with unknown sexy women. One night, I took a pill of extazy, drank one bottle of vodka, smoked some weed, i even hunted the dragon with cocaine and mescaline. I was nearly going to make an overdose, and then this girl game. I took the rest of lucidity and i chat with her, talking like i was talking to the woman of my life. I took her in a isolated place, and we had sex (no we didn't make love), we had good, and long sex together, with long foreplay. We started in a pool, continued on a chair near to the pool, i took her without "getting out" of her inside on the carpet of the bedroom, and then on the bed. On the bed i asked her if she wanted to try backdoor. I went quickly to the bathroom, washed my "tool" and go back in a normal way. We tried few position. And then i came ( is this the good word ? ) or her breaths. i felt so good, and then she told me that she was only 17 and that she was virgin. I made her drink, took cocaine and i fucked her and she was a teen. Should i Be forgive ?

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