I want to be a Saint, please help me, I do

A problem. I'm pregnant. Just found out today, though I've been sure for a while. Probably four or five weeks along now. It's my ex-boyfriends. He left me recently to be with his baby's momma (he has an eight-month old son). In the past four or five weeks, I've had alcohol numerous times, smoked cigarettes consistantly, smoked a decent amount of bud, and blown a lot of coke. I know this is all bad for the baby- but I'm secretly hoping I'm going to have a miscarriage. I'm not going to stop smoking and I'm not going to stop doing drugs. I can't afford an abortion, but I can't have this baby either. I'm eighteen and starting school tomorrow. I really just can't. I'm sure I'm a bad person. But I'd be an even worse mother. I'm in no position to have a baby- I can barely take care of myself. In addition, my ex and I hate each other. I don't know. I can't tell anyone and I don't know what to do. Cocaine, cigarettes and alcohol all increase chances of miscarriages early on in pregnancy...so I'm hoping all three will be a sure-fire way of getting rid of this. I'm going to h***, I'm pretty sure.

A problem. I'm pregnant. Just found out today, though I've been sure for a while. Probably four or ...

Mother in law One night my mother in law called asking for help due to washing machine overflowing so i took my shop vac back to her house t help her clean it up. when i arrived she was wearing this tight sweater and these little white shorts . She looked amazing but i tried to look the other way. at one point i looked over at her because she was laughing I am a 52 year virgin and there is this man that use to work in our office I found out he is single and I really want to have s** with him. I don't know if I should tell him what I want to do to him. I want him to tear off his clothes It's the purpose of marriage. And we are desecrating a beautiful sacrament. And America was founded with religious morals. We don't have any right to defy what God says. That's all I have to say. So ashamed I need nappies/diapers at night because I wet the bed, also I'm very girly and wear knickers/panties during the day

Mother in law One night my mother in law called asking for help due to washing machine overflowing ...

There's a guy at my school As the title says, there's a guy at my school, I just started to go to college, and him and I follow a similar schedule, arriving and leaving at the same time- and we see each other around the college, and I find him really attractive but I haven't brought myself to say hi to him. Even though we've had slight interactions in passing, and I just really need to say hi to him and ask his name and I just eeeuugghhh

There's a guy at my school As the title says, there's a guy at my school, I just started to go to c...