Secret life Im a stay at home mother to 3 kids. im young, 32 and I take great care of myself. im in shape and I think, quite attractive. my husband is a little bit older, hes 41 and the last year or so ive started to feel that hes bored with me. I NEED the attention he used to give me so ive started going into chat rooms and skeevy hook up sites late at night. I love it when guys tell me im hot and that they want to see me. I have so much fun and im satisfied when I go to bed but in the morning I hate myself. every morning I tell myself no more but by the nighttime im doing it again. im so ashamed. people would be shocked if they knew. we seem perfect.