Do I really love her?

I like this guy, he's not cute, but he is... If that makes sense. His personality is cute, not the outside though (well i think it is, but in the one who likes him) he's considerably shorter than me. But what I'm ranting about is the fact that my friends are like horrible about him, like saying he's scrawny, ugly and weird. He is a little strange, ill give them that, but i cant tell the tha lt he's my crush cuz they'll probably disown me, like they did with my first boyfriend. But they knew he was a dick, and i didn't. Anyway that's a different rant. So I'm the person who is like all alone on this crush thing, cuz i cant tell nobody. Not even my mum, cuz she's like one of those mums that will pester you until you ask them out. I'm the only one who knows my secret, and its kinda crappy. BUT HE'S ADORABLE! AND HE ALWAYS LOOKS ME IN THE EYES WHEN SPEAKING TO ME! AHH, but i know he don't like me, cuz in art, he was sat next to me and was talking to his mate, saying "should i ask her out?" like fuck would he say that if it was me...

I like this guy, he's not cute, but he is... If that makes sense. His personality is cute, not the o...

Sometimes in the workplace, you have to pretend that you have a boyfriend or that you are engaged or married in order to keep face with everyone. I knew one straight girl who went as far as declare herself as a lesbian in her workplace to keep the weird guys away. She was very beautiful with long curly blonde hair and blue eyes. Guys used to chase after her and it had become a nuisance for her in the workplace. So she declared herself as a lesbian in the workplace. not a good idea later she found it hard to move the term. myself I have made out I am with someone. I worked with one doctor who used to just agree with her patients if they assumed she was married or had kids and I have done that myself, the other day I rang about counselling for child sexual abuse for myself and the receptionist said "oh how old are your kids" and I said "hmmm, uhm 16 and 19 both abused by their father" to sound exciting even though I have no kids and no husband but it made me feel important with her like she started treating me like I was a real person having kids and husband then being single, so I enjoyed the feeling and I used to wear fake engagement rings to look taken, its amazing how as soon as you do that guys will try to come on to you if your enganged with a nice diamond ring. anyway my friend -Outside work, she has her own life and she is dating guys.

Sometimes in the workplace, you have to pretend that you have a boyfriend or that you are engaged or...

WHY DON'T YOU WANT ME I'm not even joking, you say you like me and you kiss me but you fucking say you can't commit. SERIOUSLY. Oh my God this boy brings the worst out of me. I fucking told him I loved him, he told me he loved me too. Then, the next night he decides to tweet about his ex-girlfriend, tweeting lyrics from Passenger's song "Let Her Go". Punch in the stomach or what!? I have lost all respect for myself because I am always his rebound girl and I will always fill in the gaps for him when he is going from one relationship to another but I am so attached to him I wouldn't dream of not talking to him.

WHY DON'T YOU WANT ME I'm not even joking, you say you like me and you kiss me but you fucking say ...