Mei,I did not leave for heaven with you...But I still miss

Lately I've been thinking about hurting myself. I'm usually the 1st one to call out people who want to or already killed themselves. Now I'm sitting here thinking about it. I have no real friends. I pushed everyone away because of there fakeness Reason is why I'm still here is because of my wife. She don't know my dark thoughts. I pray that someone or something takes me out everyday. I fake my smile and hide my sadness by cracking jokes and trying to have fun. But at the end of the day, I'm not not satisfied. I sit down everyday when I'm alone for about 20 minutes when I get home having thoughts run wild in my mind. I feel like a coward thinking about it. But to be honest, if I never met her. I would've end it by now. I want to get help. But I feel I will get thrown away as damaged goods and forgotten about. I feel alone with no one to talk to.

Lately I've been thinking about hurting myself. I'm usually the 1st one to call out people who want ...

I use these online dating portals the other way around. The fattest and ugliest women get the highest or best rank. That's poetic justice!

I use these online dating portals the other way around. The fattest and ugliest women get the highes...

where you see urban decay its about heartbreak! I just see broken hearts and broken dreams! it needs an injection of love and tlc like I told a shop that has been sloppy and obsessed with money making rather then customer investment in quality and customer relationship building! quality and output then shows and so does input of investment and help employees and unemployed and urban shuttershock and enviro-psychological decline.

where you see urban decay its about heartbreak! I just see broken hearts and broken dreams! it needs...