Afraid of Change My partner has started to transition ftm and I'm happy for him but it still makes me feel like s*. He understands that I'm uncomfortable with my body bit he doesn't know that I hate myself for it. I want to identify as gender neutral, get rid of my b**, and get a name and pronoun change but I'm scared as h*. He saw the opportunity to change and he did it beautifully and flawlessly but my opportunity passed by miles ago. It sounds stupid but I'm probably gonna wait for years to do this for my family will think I'm an abomination and they made that very clear. It might just stay a dream but who knows! Baby steps right?

Afraid of Change My partner has started to transition ftm and I'm happy for him but it still makes me feel like s***. He understands that I'm uncomfortable with my body bit he doesn't know that I hate myself for it. I want to identify as gender neutral, get rid of my b******, and get a name and pronoun change but I'm scared as h***. He saw the opportunity to change and he did it beautifully and flawlessly but my opportunity passed by miles ago. It sounds stupid but I'm probably gonna wait for years to do this for my family will think I'm an abomination and they made that very clear. It might just stay a dream but who knows! Baby steps right?

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