I confess, I cannot stop get excited from my girlfriend, I was always want sex with her. She doesn't from the deep of her heart and because of she is Christian, but she did want me as well. I really love her and wanna merry her as soon as I found Job. I just graduated but not working hard on job searching. I am also hold too much Pride to what I had the nice thing done too many years ago. I don't listen to the suggestion from others well. I do have sins. I pray for my forgiviness. I do really sorry for that.