i've been making up excuses to not complete my college work and I got to get into it.

I am studying accounting and arts and law subjects and some medical subjects very similar as before but moving on, I won't explain it all to anyone ever again when I was in a arts/law degree that was going to take at least 7 years full time to complete I was bashed and raped and had a stroke bullied and made fun of so I don't tell people now all of what I am doing I deliberately act vague so they are never too sure you learn from your past naivety when young. so my pride was wounded to fail more then half way through the double degree and the weird thing was I knew all the legal stuff from college days better so it must have been the quality of teachers in readan as well that made the difference. or maybe it was me, somewhere I lost myself and a few broken hearts over men and lost confidence and had so many nervous breakdowns from being assaulted just walking to university or attacked while studying and no real help. I had to drag myself back up, with a lot of physical illness and loneliness.

I am studying accounting and arts and law subjects and some medical subjects very similar as before ...

I am sick of this lifestyle. I tell my mother everything I did as a kid and she said I should not feel guilty for what happened at all. I confide a lot in my parents and my dad always gave me good advice, may you never meet a friend on the way down. but i think it should be on the way up because some people that make out they are your friends really fuck up your life fuck up your love life, fuck up your career and job life and they have no morals for what they do,it is just jealousy= like joyce she was jealous of me from day 1 and I was too naive to see it. but she was the lesson I didn't need to learn, she was someone elses lesson that went the wrong way, just like i am someone some academics theises on morality and child sexual abuse - I wrote one myself, but i was this criminologists experiement as a child got wrong.

I am sick of this lifestyle. I tell my mother everything I did as a kid and she said I should not fe...

i am a single woman who masturbates to porn. i feel disgusted afterwards and think "thank god that is over and done with" i really want a loving husband with a mature mind and soul and who loves to put detail into what they do and wants children and is refined and well educated, i am always re-educating myself and i long for a good man and career at the end we are all just human beings that need love over job titles and income brackets and bank accounts and name titles etc. i just wish i knew what is about me that pushes the men i like away, i am considering doing a complete expo-say and interviewing radom men business and all areas and getting them to critique me and i think i am tough enough to take the truth if its negative or positive. i just want some feedback. i don't get flirts and that is a form of feedback for women to access their attraction and skills, i never got feedback in jobs, just dead silence. it so silent its erry and creepy society stuff. has the whole world gone halloween but me?

i am a single woman who masturbates to porn. i feel disgusted afterwards and think "thank god that i...