its crazy that i can understand the format and cope with certain university subjects more then I can tafe? like I failed adult senior biology 2 times yet passed forensic ethics and genetic engineering ethics but couldn't pass senior biology but how can you if the senior course is only 15 weeks when really its 2 years normally. and i think tpc was better when subjects ran over 2 semesters and also I did paralegal diploma in 9months then they changed the curriculum and wouldn't let me pass the course after doing over 3/4s of it and it cost me over $8,000 (I had to beg borrow and slave for) and years ago tafe used to do associate diplomas over 2 years my dad was doing a business AD and my sister did a computer programming AD and they had it cheap and over 2years and here was me expected to do a full diploma with computer and business and justice of the peace in 9mths. I was hurt and I am still hurt about what they did to me, I dropped out of university a few times, humanities degree and a international business/law degree after being assaulted and getting sick. dropped out of pathology and its like I feel a failure. even though I went back and did sports nutrition and podiatry assisting and computer and pharmacy etc I feel inadequate. nothing I do feels like "that bliss point" I used to have.

its crazy that i can understand the format and cope with certain university subjects more then I can tafe? like I failed adult senior biology 2 times yet passed forensic ethics and genetic engineering ethics but couldn't pass senior biology but how can you if the senior course is only 15 weeks when really its 2 years normally. and i think tpc was better when subjects ran over 2 semesters and also I did paralegal diploma in 9months then they changed the curriculum and wouldn't let me pass the course after doing over 3/4s of it and it cost me over $8,000 (I had to beg borrow and slave for) and years ago tafe used to do associate diplomas over 2 years my dad was doing a business AD and my sister did a computer programming AD and they had it cheap and over 2years and here was me expected to do a full diploma with computer and business and justice of the peace in 9mths. I was hurt and I am still hurt about what they did to me, I dropped out of university a few times, humanities degree and a international business/law degree after being assaulted and getting sick. dropped out of pathology and its like I feel a failure. even though I went back and did sports nutrition and podiatry assisting and computer and pharmacy etc I feel inadequate. nothing I do feels like "that bliss point" I used to have.
20

Next post in 20s

Will redirect automatically

This confession was shared anonymously on i4giveu.com

More from 'Pride' category

yeh well I reckon russel was going around saying i was gay and told some other guys to stay away from me so he could have me all alone and I think ken might have done this and a few other guys, so this is why I was not getting to meet new guys openly because I always wondered why a lot of guys my own age were not more interested in me. if these assholes only knew the trouble they cause in someones life stealing the love they could have had with someone better. like lacky lee of 12 was not my ideal. and the idiot who has called me a rough diamond to be honest, at first I was offended because I was never called that by teachers and other people who knew me well infact I was told the opposite that I was very well spoken and wrote very good assignments and had a great use of the english language and articulate and teachers would tell me I was very eloquent in responses to exam assignments in such short time to deviler good arguments etc so anyway then I figured after hearing a guy talking I though ok if I am a rough diamond you want to know what I think of most of boofoon losers I have met skank class to be honest. my parents always taught me too much to be polite to rude and stupid people and tolerate them but that has no helped me much. the test of good manners is to tolerate bad my parents always used to say to me. or if you can't say something nice say nothing at all and I life by this more then not. but now I just think a rough diamond is before its prime and lusture and shine, at least if I am a rough diamond (which I don't think I am) to me a rough diamond is brash and like richard branson or trump etc, or worse, but I guess rough diamonds are in vogue in a way because we get to polish ourselves up. people are forgiving to mistakes of certain people but not others? which is strange. I don't feel like a rough diamond at all really. I am just a cranky grumpy old bitch who has been hurt, and I just tell people now when they have hurt me like somewhere forgot during all the sarina russo reprogramming depersonalization program of isolation and destruction of self worth that I even had a right to have feelings. wow what a new concept!

yeh well I reckon russel was going around saying i was gay and told some other guys to stay away fro...