做最好的自己，从今日起。

the furniture, the courses, the losing weight, the clothing and the house all came too late to be valuable to anyone. everything in my life comes too late to be enjoyed. so i guess the men and friends will as well. I will be too old to have a baby and too sick and too old to even have a sex life, everyone has stolen everything good from me, the vultures have just left an empty shell for me of heart ache, and that fat little mongie turd bully bum kelly and her husband spastic garry and her controlling bullying and those spastic choirs and those spastic churches full of nutcases and tards and ego maniac senile old farts who are of no good to society at all were the finish for me. i am sick of spastic people having too much power who don't have a clue of what they are doing, joyce didn't have a clue of what she was doing with me. she could have done a lot more to help me. senile old crow

the furniture, the courses, the losing weight, the clothing and the house all came too late to be va...

these online courses say "learn in the comfort of your own home" its not my home no1, there is no comfort in this old broken down messy wreck of a junk yard house no2, learn is rather simplicisticly flippantly spoken when you are constantly teaching yourself... why is it older people don't want to be the teachers and impart with knowledge for the next generation more freely? why are these nationally accred courses so dear and unable to pass? tafe is so hard and stressful university is bullying I have done a degree so I know how hard it is and the bullying. why did tafe make diplomas so hard when back in 1994 they had associate diplomas you could do over 2 years or more and yet i had to do a diploma in less then 9months. i lost money a lot of times at tafe and private places. i actually now have quite a fear of assignments and examines as I used to get so stressed in law exams, teachers at senior community colleges were teaching first year law subjects better then university and tafe. the teachers were better. they wanted to teach, impart knowledge, tafe dont its too stressful now for me. I am studying at home but I want to go to a classroom to get dressed up and have a purpose in the day to feel proud todress up and look attractive and the hope of meeting friends and a man, I want certain mens attentions. ok. I wanted business men to notice me and date me. I wanted to learn. i like having a teacher to help me. I am sick of teaching myself. its lonely, I have done all kinds of study from online, correspondance, homestudy, on campus and classroom, and I sometimes need a change. I have done workshops and I like some and didn't like some. but I want to get out more. I wanted to wear my beauty therapy uniforms they cost me $400.00 and can you imagine my hurt when I was told 1 week before the course started that the govt were not going to pay the vet fee funding. i was crushed. i told all my friends at the time I was going to do this nice beauty course 3 days a week I only told a few were, and anna must have ruined it on me. it has to have been her, why would aaron my nephew do that to me ? I guess he could have, but someone debilerately ruined it. I had to buy a size 20 jacket and 2 dresses and they are so pretty. I had been wanting to do that course for about 7years and coun't afford it. I wanted to do some other courses as well so maybe it worked out for my benefit afterall.

these online courses say "learn in the comfort of your own home" its not my home no1, there is no co...

if you were smelling shitty kitty litter boxes all day in your house you would want to go out. this house has never met our needs. we were told this is all your getting take it or the other house with the pool but the pool house won't suit your needs anyway, and more water rates, so we took this house out of the drug addict real estate agents advice who stole money from us. this pokey little dark kitten, old carpet, a dingey rumpus room, and old fitzpatrick who built the house I swear the idiots must have used beer bottles to measure things all the empty bottles in the ceiling and nothing is measured the same, each fence pannel is a different size, that makes no sense???? its like the twilight zone here. this house never met our needs, i wanted to put in a cat enclosure out the back so they had some outdoor greenery indoors seperate to the main house so no more smelly litter trays all the time. I wanted to put the kitchen down stairs and bigger to cater for our lifestyle and make the kitchen upstairs a library. the bitch sister won't let me put up nice french iron beds and I am not giving away stuff asian lisa from the church wanted me to give away, i bought them to place them where I want them or we move to a better place where I can have my furniture and I don't want to adopt other peoples kids asian terrorist lisa, I want my own kids, how about you get your freeloads out of here you have a everything I don't bitch. then you insult me telling I can adopt I have no job n on disabbility they don't allow people like me to adopt you abusive special special superior asian bitch!

if you were smelling shitty kitty litter boxes all day in your house you would want to go out. this ...