I am never looking at a man ever again particularly a few and I am inlove with a young women who is getting married and I am a older women, what the hell should I do? I love her she is so pretty and I can't see me ever marrying or finding love or having children, so I wish I could get with this girl which it sounds crazy she is about 20 years younger then me but I just woke up and realised nothing is ever again going to work right for me and there is no point trying to make it work. I love her. and its a difficult situation to be in but life is not going to go how I want it to. my pride is too wounded and I even am considering not going on the internet ever again for anything. its a useless thing that helps no one get jobs or relationships or friends. who is the internet really helping ? no one.