people say I am wasting away my life on the net, I study just about every day or at night if I go out during the day. I have no social life and no friends that is true because my counsellor told me to dump them all when they were hurting my feelings so much. what else can I do with life? I can't force myself on people and make people employ me or like me. I don't know how to make drugs or how to do hacking or even make a webpage even though I have done some units in college in that crap, I don't know how to earn a living which I think is pretty disgusting and not the person I intended to be. I can't make men date me! I can't make them ask me out for sex or dinner or movies or whatever. I just don't know what else to do, what is wrong with me? am I bad for wanting love and employment and studying? is that the new bad ? these days cuz I don't know what is anymore. I don't know how people date and I don't do texting and talk shit street slang that much. I genuinly like people and I made all these xmas things and feel like giving them away. i would feel better if I was allowed to feel normal sometimes.