i am expected to be all things to all peoples - not likely.

last night we couldn't afford to go out with our cousins. we had made a commitment for something and I just want to change the appointment time anyway because I don't have enough money to afford to see a doctor or bus fare even. we just have no money. they don't understand. we have always been the poor relations on both my mum's and dad's side, its because my parents and me are losers. its just a fact.

last night we couldn't afford to go out with our cousins. we had made a commitment for something and...

should I just give up courses and things that are out of my comfort zone and where I belong in shit. let's face it. life is not suddenly get better and we live on fun street, right. i won't get a job from any thing I study. I won't find a man or friends. I won't make money. my books and my ideas are not liked. I am not liked. shouldnt I just stop wanting more and just stop trying to be better then the loser I am?

should I just give up courses and things that are out of my comfort zone and where I belong in shit....

Im a 22 years old, good looking, italian boy. I read the posts on this site everytime I feel sad, that means in every moment. Im so depressed. The girlfriend I loved cheated on me, she hurt me so much, I had to leave her after I tried to pardon her. Shes a bitch, but at least she was caring. Now I am worried of girls, but also I desperatly need someone that is caring with me. I started “college two years ago, I am not studying but I dont want to work, because I want a work that satisfies me, not a common one. I am very good in writing, but I dont do anything that going to a stupid, temporary job and losing time playing computer games. I am too sensitive, and for that people thinks that i act strangely. I have few friends, and only one of them that I really like to stay with. Im falling in love for the girlfriend of a friend. Shes not so beautiful, but shes really really intelligent and educated. I am pretty and I could have all the girls I want, but I like only inttelligent, educate and sensible ones. Not like my ex. I love my family, but they dont completly understand me. And they are right always telling me that Im waisting my life. I dont see a future for me. Im a failiure. In everything. Writing, gaming and drinking too much are the only things that I can do. I dont know why Im writing this here. I would like someone of you to help me. But noone, obviously, can

Im a 22 years old, good looking, italian boy. I read the posts on this site everytime I feel sad,...