I binge and purge eveyday. Sometimes I binge and purge eveyday. Sometimes twice a day. I'm worried Ill get throat cancer, Im worried if my sister knew she'd never speak to me again. I dont like living with her, she wont let me be myself. I dont want to need help or be sick. I want to be strong and stand for myself. I turn 20 this month, but I feel more immature than when I was 13. I'm so unhappy, but I dont think I could ever leave, I dont know where I would go. I want to be strong and healthy enough to be happy here. I have so much to be thankful for, but I keep making myself pick, and pertetuating new problems for myself. Im sacred that if I was healthy and happy, Id have to take responsability for my life, for all I havn't accomplished, for how beind I feel with everything, for how much I've hurt those I used to be closest to, for how much I've hurt myself.