what ticks me off with private health insurance in australia if a private specialist does a surgical procedure in his or her clinic they don't give a claim for much. if you go into a day hospital some cover things, like when I had my vaginal byopsies done and had stitches I couldn't get anything on my private health fund. I just think its wrong they ge et paid enough to cover all these things, my pet insurance pays for more then my own health insurance does. ? crazy. and yesterday I woke up with a lump on the inside of my vaginal wall near where the needle when in and I have to go to my gp who is a skin cancer specialist anyway but the point is I have to pay a fortune to see my gyno and its annoying. I don't mind that I can get a massage half price with all my back injures from car accident and assault but seriously they pay for nothing when i see the neurologist/back surgeon, or ent, or gyno, i have not tried dental yet but want to. I wanted to have a baby ages ago and have all dental work out of the way but the stupid dentist would not listen to me the asian control freak she is. like some asians have no hearts for white women single on disability. its all about their bloody asian black ass and I am sick of it most of them have degrees in health and get man after man. its not fair. what if I want to have my eggs frozen if I can't find a husband and have a baby soon. its going to be too late soon if its not already and everyone else but me is to blame for it. I can't help it if I am sexually shy and modest and don't push myself onto people like a bad rash! smother love over men. if they don't show interest in time I give up quick and move on, i don't have to take their bs.

one physiotherapist I went to when I was really ill did really hard massage on my left shoulder and he said to me "you have an incredible tolerance to pain" and I thought "yeh well don't push it mate!" because he seemed to go all the harded and then said to me "you will feel like you are having a heart attack but your not" sure enough a few days later I was packing off to another doctor beside myself in over my mastoid eventhough all the mri's and ct scans were showing what they said was "nothing" yet the ambulance officer said "there is a good reason why you have been sent to the neurologist/brain surgeon" the heart pain was out of this world serveral times in a few months I thought I was going to die I could tell when my heart was slowing down and I would be pacing around all hours of the night trying to breath and I was seeing another physiotherapist as well for pnemonia treatment and I just wondered why people were doing all this to me? ever since I was a kid people were putting this shit down on me, then all this deliberate isolation like I was some leppa or freakin criminal on parole going to russos answering the big bear gruff which was just insanity. all these doctors and tests all saying "no nothing is wrong, yes you have a ear infection but you won't die" and I was like well why the hell is this driving me insane the infection took forever to go down and once the ent did the surgery on my ear drum I had all this blood on the roof of my mouth for weeks and I couldn't brush my teeth so I was using salt a lot and I couldn't wash my hair because everytime I did it felt like my brain water was swelling and you just get sick of doctors saying shit at you that its like they are taking a bit off you rather then being sincer and polite, and there were a few really good doctors as well. one indian young doctor at the hospital was amazingly thorough, I get really annoyed sometimes because a lot of doctors today forget very basic procedures like BP and pulse and looking into throat and eyes and chest - they are often as lazy as the cops and will take the laziest way out of a case which years ago doctors would never do. I was insulted a number of times and I was warned to shut up and let the situation go and ignore all the bullying and if I said anything it was like I was going to get it I got the warning via other people however, they use other people to talk through them. that is what I don't like its really snide too. and I was not going to back down. I told one indian female doctor to go shove it because I was polite to her and she would giggle and shake her head and say the specialists didn't prescript the right thing or it wouldn't work what they prescribed and I said "I have to trust my gp i have to rely on you to work with my specialists and tell me things if they don't, if you think its an issue say so say why? don't just giggle and she was like "I don't need to read all that from the specialist I am a doctor" and I said yes but I am not! I need you to follow with the speciaist and not have me as lettuce leaf between the sandwich. why are you working against the specialists every time? why do you keep saying they are wrong?" that only puts more doubt and upset on me then making me question them more and more. I don't need anymore doubt I already have plenty, and I don't want anyone ruining my professional relationships with any more of my doctors becausse its annoying having to change doctors I need to settle somewhere and trust what they say. I try my best to ignore as much as I can, but I don't need the unwanted comments that are insulting because believe me, I can be insulting and slash back unexpectly at people too! I have my ways and means of finding peoples secrets out. I will undo people who mess with me, I hate my neighbors for attacking D, he can answer for himsself if he wronged me.

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