my older sister is a selfish bitch and my younger brother has been spoilt while I am the forgotten child always in the middle never fitting in anywhere all my life so far. people don't like me for some reason even when I said nothing and was polite to everyone they didn't like me so I just decided to speak more of how I felt and mind and when I am offended and I don't care who I hurt now when I say things- people never cared enough about my feelings or needs, if they had of they would have provided as expected and they failed to provide to me what I needed and wanted. people always give me things too late, ask my feelings or opinion too late, give me things in a very nasty way as if I was putting them out or a bother to expect normal life experiences at the correct given time and anything that is giving is given with a lot of vexation and tantrums and fighting and bickering in family and full of bitter bitching words at me or making fun or just out and out ignoring, I mean if sue has her own lives in 2010 why then did she not have her own life in 2000 and not be a judge in the baby show and have more to do, its all too conveniant that this strumpet slut bullying and even my mother said sue made her feel less of a woman, its too conveniant that bitch turns up living on the islands when the super slut whore deliberately picked the time to move to over shaddow my turn and walk over me and rain on my parade and she was jealous of me to find a husband and have a degree etc. that has to be their satanic acts she had it all plotted that manxy whore. taking never giving. she should have said "no we have our lives I can't be a judge at your shows find someone else" I told the nuns at the church this and a few people... sue is so pointed like the devil I hate her. I never did like sue I have to admit I never liked her as much as other cousins but they all took from me and abused me finding their pathetic excuses to abuse me and gang up on me, and if they only knew my brother and sisters sins and faults and what I have had to tolerate from them. they are not so perfect. and nor are my relatives. they made me and my sister feel like spastics and low confidence when we were kids and made fun of us all the time. i went around boasting up others confidnece speaking nice about them and I would tell more the truth in my own personal private diaries but I never spoke bad about them to others til I found out they had done that to me for all those years and the hate they had for me must have been all consuming to them like that freak horned valentino clown.

my older sister is a selfish bitch and my younger brother has been spoilt while I am the forgotten child always in the middle never fitting in anywhere all my life so far. people don't like me for some reason even when I said nothing and was polite to everyone they didn't like me so I just decided to speak more of how I felt and mind and when I am offended and I don't care who I hurt now when I say things- people never cared enough about my feelings or needs, if they had of they would have provided as expected and they failed to provide to me what I needed and wanted. people always give me things too late, ask my feelings or opinion too late, give me things in a very nasty way as if I was putting them out or a bother to expect normal life experiences at the correct given time and anything that is giving is given with a lot of vexation and tantrums and fighting and bickering in family and full of bitter bitching words at me or making fun or just out and out ignoring, I mean if sue has her own lives in 2010 why then did she not have her own life in 2000 and not be a judge in the baby show and have more to do, its all too conveniant that this strumpet slut bullying and even my mother said sue made her feel less of a woman, its too conveniant that bitch turns up living on the islands when the super slut whore deliberately picked the time to move to over shaddow my turn and walk over me and rain on my parade and she was jealous of me to find a husband and have a degree etc. that has to be their satanic acts she had it all plotted that manxy whore. taking never giving. she should have said "no we have our lives I can't be a judge at your shows find someone else" I told the nuns at the church this and a few people... sue is so pointed like the devil I hate her. I never did like sue I have to admit I never liked her as much as other cousins but they all took from me and abused me finding their pathetic excuses to abuse me and gang up on me, and if they only knew my brother and sisters sins and faults and what I have had to tolerate from them. they are not so perfect. and nor are my relatives. they made me and my sister feel like spastics and low confidence when we were kids and made fun of us all the time. i went around boasting up others confidnece speaking nice about them and I would tell more the truth in my own personal private diaries but I never spoke bad about them to others til I found out they had done that to me for all those years and the hate they had for me must have been all consuming to them like that freak horned valentino clown.
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