I want to fart on all of you. I think your all shit.

My girlfriend (N) and I broke up two years ago. We had too many insecurities and there was no communication. N blamed me for it and I believed her. N was hurt and mad. We were best friends before going out and we understood each other pretty well. So three months later (last year), we became friends again. I didn't forget her. I thought about trying again, but I was scared because I had hurt N before and I still didn't know how to manage a relationship. But not everything is about me. Her family is full of idiots. She always felt sad because of it, although last year she got worse. She felt empty. N told me that I was a great support because I make her laugh and forget all of that... I think she needs a friend more than a lover right now. If I told her about my thoughts of trying again, she'd have more troubles. Maybe we just can't be together, but I still have hope and I want N to get better. I know that I'm an idiot who doesn't know how to let go for still thinking that it can work, but I just wanted to tell somebody my feelings. I also know that the final result of this situation is probably me forgetting her.

My girlfriend (N) and I broke up two years ago. We had too many insecurities and there was no commun...

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do you know how it feels to be told every conceiveable thing you attempt to do or say your told "you won't be able to do that, because your too stupid" even down to sex and child birth and working in a shop or library ? have you any idea how battered that feeling is? and stalkers upsetting you stealing away your trust in every human being, bashers like katy stealing away every human faith or trust in others??? questioning everytime? "I wonder how she got him? I wonder did that woman have to bash someone to get him? who helped her? and why won't anyone ever help me?" why always these wrong weirods who are stupid, they don't know how to die because they have not faced death, they don't know how to live morally because they have not faced a scrap of their own death. and you expect me to talk to these spastics. no I won't!

do you know how it feels to be told every conceiveable thing you attempt to do or say your told "you...