i have pain again. hope it eases up. fuk it. where is some relief from this boring existence?

i tust want to know why joyce as a therapist needed to see me fail at university and relationships and where and who was putting this bullshit in her head to say to me, why did she feel the need to ruin every part of my life. I never did that to anyone so why do it to me? how could it have made her feel better about herself anyway? its been 25 -30 years of hell. emotional and physical pain loneliness and abuse and never being hugged and loved right. I didn't think it would be this complicated. then she needed to ruin my career and health and our house and my dads business. why? why did she need to see me childless and isolated and in pain?

i tust want to know why joyce as a therapist needed to see me fail at university and relationships a...

i am sick of having to see everyone having everything I need and want. I am sick of going without and I am sick of being made to feel ugly by everyone and unworthy. its gone too far ages ago. dr yana was abusing me she was the one causing me distress and yet she was saying rubbish like i was causing her stress - my therapist laughed and said she is nuts and should give up her job then. I am starting to hate all black niggar bums. I think they ruin white womens love lives deliberately out of jealousy and need to be stopped.

i am sick of having to see everyone having everything I need and want. I am sick of going without an...

this fat bombastic abusive ugly indian whore who was bullying me with her shit, talking down at me, laughing and saying treatment the specialist gave me would not work and not explaining things and I was client. she had a duty to me and she was acting stupid. I wondered if she knew that adel from iran on make friends.com who was stalking me with bullshit saying I eat too much and need to be vegan and all this rubbish. he was an idiot.

this fat bombastic abusive ugly indian whore who was bullying me with her shit, talking down at me, ...