I am sick of joyce crushing my heart making me feel like I don't deserve to wear a pretty wedding dress, all women want a beautiful wedding and feel special on a wedding day and I don't care if I am accused of waitaround for some knight in shining armor or prince from god only knows where. I really thought I would meet my guy at college or law school or I would get a job and meet someone, maybe I should have gone knocking on every brothel or single male door in town but its probably not me to do that anyway, I seen a lot of young "businessy" hot guys ,but they didn't see me I just hate women who are so evil who ruin love for other women and can't bare to see someone being loved and enjoying a marriage. I have always been glad for others but if people don't want to see me find love then why should I for them? that is why I just put my foot down with family weddings after my sister was married and I said "no mum we are not going to anyones wedding they don't care about me and my feelings" we went to my brothers and that was the only other one. I just refuse to go to peoples weddings. I am glad for other people I don't know more then I am for people I know and I know they would treat me better then most other people who know me. that is the crazy thing.