I am sick of joyce crushing my heart making me feel like I don't deserve to wear a pretty wedding dress, all women want a beautiful wedding and feel special on a wedding day and I don't care if I am accused of waitaround for some knight in shining armor or prince from god only knows where. I really thought I would meet my guy at college or law school or I would get a job and meet someone, maybe I should have gone knocking on every brothel or single male door in town but its probably not me to do that anyway, I seen a lot of young "businessy" hot guys ,but they didn't see me I just hate women who are so evil who ruin love for other women and can't bare to see someone being loved and enjoying a marriage. I have always been glad for others but if people don't want to see me find love then why should I for them? that is why I just put my foot down with family weddings after my sister was married and I said "no mum we are not going to anyones wedding they don't care about me and my feelings" we went to my brothers and that was the only other one. I just refuse to go to peoples weddings. I am glad for other people I don't know more then I am for people I know and I know they would treat me better then most other people who know me. that is the crazy thing.

my freakin spooky weekend vacation. the beach view was heaven and I paid through the nose for it. just about broke my ass for it as usual living like a begger to give to others. so I paid for the holiday for me and my parents. we went on a wine tasting day outing that was bloody awful. by the first wine place I had had enough of tasting shit as I am not a drinker anyway. so we land at this joint called wiccabutts falls (just for the sake of this black ass page of shit). they had some weirdo halloween event scary scarecrow competition on around all the homestead and winery vineyards around the shitshow joint. so that night was worry about how my kidneys and liver and spleen would cope with an approx half a glass of blonk shit and the food I had to force down like as a kid for some toffee snot whore relatives wedding that was fine dining but crrap. yeh, you know what i mean. passted the bullshit stage by now and the promo garb and hard sell. so had to take a heap of liver cleanse pills and soak in the spa and heated pool and over night had a dream of a screaming woman or child or cat falling from the hotel as we were up 11 or 17 floors or so. we thought we seen MIGALOO white whale from our hotel balcony through the camera lens. so good a view. all the whales were out in the morning and afternoon. went to a cemetery some relatives were in and that freaked me out. found a grave with cement caved in - true sign of a vampire. several army plans and helicopters were patrolling around so worried the Koreans had planned to bomb us the fuckers. Asian fucking fuckers. they are the only fuckers fucking these days. then over night we hear on the news a kid fell from a hotel from the place the cemetery we went to was in same suburb - super freaked out by now. we nt to some pitiful farm thing that was not worth the money and a bloody serious poisonous snake freaked me out - a little too close for comfort as well as the few pythons for my liking- and then my dad falls out the train - obviously pushed by the witch at wiccabutts falls windery, however he was sober. shitty weekender ! what freaky things will happen at the next shitshow break?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X3LC0lSf-8

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