this is something I don't understand with some women right. one day I was at the bus stop feeling sorry for myself after yet another job knock back and diagnosis of skin cancer and this old woman of about 67 came over to sit near me and said "how are you" and usually I would fake a positive outlook and say "oh yeh I am fine lalala" but I didn't this time and said "well actually I am feeling really hurt right now, I missed out on a job I put a lot of work into trying to get, i have skin cancer and no man and being called fat and ugly by relatives and I have no friends" and she told me "oh I am so like you, I don't have a man either but I get on with life" then proceeded to tell me she had been married 3 times and had 6 kids and 10 grandchildren and had owned a business etc, nothing like me at all. I never been married once never held down a full time job for long and can't find a man to save myself, I have no kids and I thought you are trying to make out you are like me? and she said "oh well I will be your friend" and never spoke to me ever again and infact has ignored me as if we never met other women have done that to me as well acted later as if we have never met. how neglecte they are yet have husbands and lovely weddings and kids and I used to look in the mirror and think "why is it never me asked out should I do all the asking and pursuing and pretentory characters of a shewolf or something?" why has it always been I have to compete for a mans love? why can't they just choose me first and only me! I see a lot of guys I would ask out and they would be literally my world but they just ignore me and treat me like a doormat and I don't know why when I am a very giving caring person. people have said things to me I never once would have and now I feel so hurt I say them to others why be alone in the hurt when you can share it around?
this is something I don't understand with some women right. one day I was at the bus stop feeling sorry for myself after yet another job knock back and diagnosis of skin cancer and this old woman of about 67 came over to sit near me and said "how are you" and usually I would fake a positive outlook and say "oh yeh I am fine lalala" but I didn't this time and said "well actually I am feeling really hurt right now, I missed out on a job I put a lot of work into trying to get, i have skin cancer and no man and being called fat and ugly by relatives and I have no friends" and she told me "oh I am so like you, I don't have a man either but I get on with life" then proceeded to tell me she had been married 3 times and had 6 kids and 10 grandchildren and had owned a business etc, nothing like me at all. I never been married once never held down a full time job for long and can't find a man to save myself, I have no kids and I thought you are trying to make out you are like me? and she said "oh well I will be your friend" and never spoke to me ever again and infact has ignored me as if we never met other women have done that to me as well acted later as if we have never met. how neglecte they are yet have husbands and lovely weddings and kids and I used to look in the mirror and think "why is it never me asked out should I do all the asking and pursuing and pretentory characters of a shewolf or something?" why has it always been I have to compete for a mans love? why can't they just choose me first and only me! I see a lot of guys I would ask out and they would be literally my world but they just ignore me and treat me like a doormat and I don't know why when I am a very giving caring person. people have said things to me I never once would have and now I feel so hurt I say them to others why be alone in the hurt when you can share it around?