i was supposed to have a key hole surgury because my doctor was worried about a tumor growing in the bladder and I know my stomach has swelled out, the doctors are so bla about it. I am suprised I wake up and get up a life. some mornings I am afraid of having a heart attack. i need more vitamins and I am waiting to have this specialised medical treatment and I can't afford a dietician right now. I can't really afford gym. food is so expensive now. the pension is just not enough to survive now. some people seem to have a attitude that i should be seeing it as my early retirement and live like a bachelor gay with no kids or man and i can't. if my parents died we couldn't afford this house or pet insurance or internet and things we have. we would have to give up a lot. filipino cookie says disability single women pensioners like me are rich and we are not compared to the average wage or if i had a husband and baby with baby bonuses and mothers benefits. i couldn't even afford a child without work. idiots say "a womans place is in the home" and it might be if they are married living with their husband and have kids but if you can't afford to go out to meet new people to find a man how do you find your own home to have a place in , I ask? i sick of all the lies and games of people.