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i broke out in a hives allergy rash a few times and a skin swelling disorder / rash in 2003 when working in a office from buying 2nd hand clothing at the thrift shops. I used to buy pre-loved clothing as a teen and adult occasionally but got really into it in my late 20s cuz I started my antiques collections of furniture and vintage clothing. I don't always wear my vintage style clothing in fear of being made fun of. but I have some nice old things but I got a skin swelling blistering rash after being exposed to someone who had menigicocal at the private college I was at and I also was exposed to a virus that was leaked at the university campus I was going to as well. I would wake in shaking shivery sweats in my 20s a lot due to this, and then have vomitting bouts out of nowhere usually on first day of period always so I gave up taking painkillers where as I was always on pain killers for period pain from the age 11 til 25 then when i got the hot night sweats I always got them with my periods and all I could do was sleep out the pain for 24 hours. then I got a non-paralysising form of polio that has been painful and slipped discs in the back and neck disc injuries from car accident and I know i should have gone to hospital the night i accidently had the wrong antibiotics that i was allergic to the pain was awful all i could do was sleep it out but looking back i should have gone to hospital then, i have the vomitting time with liver fluke infection, and heaps of blood tests and mri's on my brain and back and legs. they did everything. cardioultrasounds and transvaginal ultrasounds cuz of swollen ovaries and infections and bowel problems and they thought i had a bladder tumor and kidney stones but could not prove anything without key hole surgery. I still get chunching sounds in my neck and ear and around the membrane of my brain that is due from 2nd generation antihistimines one pharmaist told me and the back/brain surgeons wouldn't agree with anything so I am none the wiser. I been exposed to bird flu, swine flu, whooping cough, and this rash from 2011 at fernwood gym from their washers with oils and that I had to take doxy for a long time close to 2 years and I refused to take it after i got really sick one night and vomitted because i accidently drank milk, which you can't drink milk with doxy and I know why it will cramp your stomach and make you vomit badly. so i put up with the rash that they said was allergens or unknown virus (like as if there is such a thing today as a unknown virus/bactrial/fungal infection, I will say no more on that topic!!!!) and to last 3 -4 years in the end i got off doxy and had innerhealth vit k and it fixed most of the rash and it comes back every so often now when I use sunscreen. and the cancer i had to have cut out was all due to the podiatrist i worked for, he was spreading germs everywhere with used gloves. they are supposed to wear 2 sets of gloves for blood procedures in dental and operations or physical body fluids examinations. i am sick of them trying to harm me.

i broke out in a hives allergy rash a few times and a skin swelling disorder / rash in 2003 when wor...

john is an asshole, him and darren killed some baby mice and probably cats. john is not this nice person you think he is. he was a complete rude shit growing up and even now, dad says straight out john deserves nothing from their will at all because of the abuse he did on me and rose over the child abuse behind our backs trying to promote others needs over his own sisters needs just because some dirty old fart william and hasbeen got in on the act. dad and mum and I blame them and other family. we blame leigh for getting me raped. she should have known better that spastic woman demanded i go to that party that night when i was ill and on medications and with a liver fluke infection. they caused all this on me deliberately. and I just want them to be forced to publicly admit it and be forced to publicly apologise for their wrongs and trying to kill me and abuse my sister and i. I could abuse all the kids who molested me but what is the point? they were just kids when it happened. but john is the evil one who let the family down under the say so of joyce and karen his wacko wife. and karen poacher has been just as jealous and abusive and a liar. she can not be trusted. she got adam to abuse me and he didn't know the full story of what her father did to me. john has turned to evil i can see he is in for hell. my parents turn their back on him and my parents support me against what ken did. dad wants ken killed. and location just like clothing does not imply a right to rape. I dont know what i was thinking at the time I was being told by rick and katy I had to let people abuse me and that was love. joyce was putting shit in my head and not listening to my needs and the real person inside of me. she would get a shock to face the real me now!

john is an asshole, him and darren killed some baby mice and probably cats. john is not this nice pe...

Can't take it :( I feel frustrated hearing people say "I had a dream that you were doing this" and "This could really be good for you" I just want to scream and say "Will you just mind your own business and back off?!" It sounds selfish and stupid and I know that people are trying to help but I just want to be able to say in the future that "I did something for me and not to please anyone else" Should I say what I feel or just try to live up to the expectations of others?

Can't take it :( I feel frustrated hearing people say "I had a dream that you were doing this" and "...