I'm 22 and happily inlove with my boyfriend. We're on our 3rd yr of relationship. I want him to be the man I marry. Ever since we've been together, i havent developed a crush on other people. However, last december, i started having a crush on one of the vps of our company..

I'm 22 and happily inlove with my boyfriend. We're on our 3rd yr of relationship. I want him to be the man I marry. Ever since we've been together, i havent developed a crush on other people. However, last december, i started having a crush on one of the vps of our company..
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