I been having sex with my cousin. At first it just started with us just kissing and fooling around one summer because we were both bored but now it's been 5 years and we continue to keep having sex with each other. I'm in love with him and always tell him I don't want to be a secret anymore but we will always have to be a secret or our family would disown us. It's hard not being able to go out like a normal couple and do everything all the other couples do. The sex is way better now, that's a start but we always have so many problems in our relationship. I'm thinking about ending it with him but I'm not sure how either of us would handle since we become so dependent on each other. I just don't want to be a secret anymore. Some of our family memeber suspect something is going on because we always hang out with each other so we had to cut that out. Now I only get to see him if one of us sneaks to the other house or we end up having sex in a car or while parents are out of town. I just really love him and want to be out in the open. We recently found out his step mother put cameras around his house and she probably caught us on the camera more than once but it was dark so she probably doesn't know it's me. I hope not or we would have to stop talking to each other forever and the sex is really good I can't live withouth having sex with him.