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I have mental issues. I have never been tested for any but I know I have them. My mom doesn't know or anybody in fact. My first problem is that I have psychopathic tendencies. I act on impulse without thinking about the consequences or how it could hurt me or someone else. Reality seems more fake than real to me and when I snap back to reality I get depressed and realize I am wasting my life. I am only 13 but every day I think of this. I don't have good grades, I break the rules, and I do what I want. I want to fight people a lot, heck I almost asked somebody today if they wanted to fight me. I feel like a disappointment to my parents. They do so much for me but I don't give a crap about it. I lose friends faster than I make them. I argue a lot and bully my friends. I make crude jokes about sexuality, gender, other lewd things. I lack empathy for others unless I really start to think about it. I don't know how to love or what it is.

I have mental issues. I have never been tested for any but I know I have them. My mom doesn't know o...

I don't know what to do...I'm a f*cked up person. I only 13 and I've watched my mom get beaten almost to death and watched her almost kill herself. I watched 3 people die before, the first was my grandma she died when I was 7 I watched her die in a nursing home slowly as cancer ate at her brain until she went crazy and finally past... I think that's when I changed. I used to be very happy on the inside and out but after my grandma died my parents got on drugs . in 2013 my grandpa died. He died right in front of me... I watched the light flicker from his eyes as he took his last breath telling me to go get help as he lied on the bed having a heart attack. After he died my parents drug addiction got worse... My mom was an alcoholic but as I grew older I realised my dad gave her alcohol so she would shut up. They always got into fights but it got bad when the fight began getting abusive. I became apathetic... I didn't care about anything anymore . I still dont.

I don't know what to do...I'm a f*cked up person. I only 13 and I've watched my mom get beaten almos...

I feel so dumb for even feeling this way! Basically after my ex left me and my kids I vowed I would never love again, I would focus my life on much needed self improvement and of course being the best parent I can be!

I feel so dumb for even feeling this way! Basically after my ex left me and my kids I vowed I would ...