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I was abused very severely as a child but it still doesn't excuse what I did. In my anger and not understanding, I used to torture and kill small animals, (bugs, small rodents, never anything more). It was terrible and I know that I'm a really bad person, and now I'm almost 30 and I can never forgive myself for what I did. I have done volunteer animal rescue all of my adult life and I don't even kill spiders, but I hate myself for the cruelty that I know is inside of me so much that I have tried to kill myself before. Please forgive me for the lives that I took, my own life that I tried to take, and the sin of being born, for that was the reason I was given for my mother beating, molesting, and throwing me starting at 18 months. God, if you're really there, I'm ready to go now, and I know where I'll go and I know that I deserve it. Thank you, anyone who read this, and to the people who run this site. Bless you all and may my damned soul be obliterated.

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I was abused very severely as a child but it still doesn't excuse what I did. In my anger and not understanding, I used to torture and kill small animals, (bugs, small rodents, never anything more). It was terrible and I know that I'm a really bad person, and now I'm almost 30 and I can never forgive myself for what I did. I have done volunteer animal rescue all of my adult life and I don't even kill spiders, but I hate myself for the cruelty that I know is inside of me so much that I have tried to kill myself before. Please forgive me for the lives that I took, my own life that I tried to take, and the sin of being born, for that was the reason I was given for my mother beating, molesting, and throwing me starting at 18 months. God, if you're really there, I'm ready to go now, and I know where I'll go and I know that I deserve it. Thank you, anyone who read this, and to the people who run this site. Bless you all and may my damned soul be obliterated.
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