I am a 32 year old man, who has been fighting my desire for men all my life. I never had been with a man. I even got married to a woman who prefers anal sex. My 40 year old boss, took me on a business trip, and slipped Molly into my drink on the second night. I woke up the next morning in his bed. My face and ass were covered with dryed cum. He had had gay sex with me. He came out of shower and said check your phone smiling at me. I found videos of us having sex. The first one was me stripping for him, and the on my hands and knees going to him. I begged him for cock. Then it shows me blowing him. There were 4 more videos, 3 of him fucking my ass and one of me jerking off into my hand and eating my own cum. He said your my sex bitch now, and will fuck and suck him on demand or my wife gets the videos. For the last 4 months, I've been his cum dump. Blow jobs under his desk during the day. At night he basically rapes me bent over his desk. I don't want to be gay this way. I want a man to love me and be gentle, not taken like dog. Worst if all his cock is 9 inches and I cum while he ass fucks me.