I did a terrible thing

Last night I was down the pub with Chris and Andy when they pulle some white powder out and asked me if i would like a snort. Not wanting to be left out I agreed to it and ran a few lines. The effect wasn't what i thought it would be but as Chris and Andy seemed to be enjoying it I didn't want to say anything.  Before I departed I asked them where I could get some good stuff like that for myself, they replied that i should try Jeannies house and take some out of the jar labeled "my dear mother"  I feel a little bad about this, but the thought of snorting an old womans ashes excites me. Is that wrong?