Confessions about 'Bu'

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my older sister was always calling me fat and ugly and unworthy since the day I was born. she won't allow our family to be a family that I can share in around her, its only her family when she is alone with her parents when she can bare them, and I am allowed to be with my parents, but she won't let me find love with any man, or to be liked as a child by friends or never liked me being liked by other relatives or even the avon lady etc , its something I don't understand. she has been screaming at me for over 30 years or more that she hates me , as the years go on she has got worse. I actually no longer love her how I used to, I no longer even try to fit in with her. I work with therapists to make me believe I am worthy of love and friends and qualities that I am allowed to have. my sister didn't want me having a nice looking husband and pushed me to every gross bald old fat weirdo in my teen and twenties etc, and I am desperately wanting to feel worthy of white intelligent attractive man I really can love and not the men my sister chose for me and would bully me to go out with. Can she handle seeing me get married as much as she has been or have a baby. she says she is the most intellegent person with her computer course and the rest of us are dumb compared to her because she graduated and the rest of us didn't and dropped out.

my older sister was always calling me fat and ugly and unworthy since the day I was born. she won't ...

Abuse

i am sick of my therapist implying statements that i used to hear my relatives say at or about the drunken epileptic old war pedo like "what you need to do is take a photo of them in your yard" etc, it feels like they are implying i am like him when i am not at all, this man put his hands down my underwear everyday of the week for years and i have never done that to any child, and then to imply that i am lying about my injuries from the accident i had. i mean some tasks i can do like i have been able to hold the garden shears and cut a few branches or twigs but not for long before it hurts my back, but i would say making the bed or even tasks as basic as getting dressed putting on underwear is painful especially applying more weight on one leg then the other and i don't appreciate the intrusion of people questioning what other specialists have adviced to me. this is not a funny comparison and certainly not a fair or qualified comparison. i don't appreciate the insult at all black eyed scums.

i am sick of my therapist implying statements that i used to hear my relatives say at or about the d...

Abuse, Hate

have you "GOT THAT!" too?

Abuse

she is like "well who can get the last fart into the drama and debate!" and I am sick of her psychodrama abuse. her revenge is going to implode on herself anyway and her dam lying daughter that comes from a mess of unknown pedo fathering and not middle east. J must have really UNSCREWED her ass around the old mess!

she is like "well who can get the last fart into the drama and debate!" and I am sick of her psychod...

Abuse

beaching madness again, piss up as much as you always do then.

Abuse

my dad knicknames himself B.L.O.B = bloody lazy old bastard , he thinks its funny and its just annoying.

my dad knicknames himself B.L.O.B = bloody lazy old bastard , he thinks its funny and its just annoy...

Abuse

I bought tickets to go on water and fun wheel and I don't know why I bother, if i had a boyfriend who would get off his asshole i would prefer that as a date out at night. I mean this is the thing that annoys me also with the holiday - no son of a slut will get off his lazy tosser ever and ask me out, its always retarded or old fart men rather then guys at university or college or work. what the fun hell is wrong with men today they are fucking mental turds. if half of them woke up that most girls would give them a nice time and lovely evening dinner and dance and such, men are so stupid.

I bought tickets to go on water and fun wheel and I don't know why I bother, if i had a boyfriend w...

Abuse

I paid for a chocolate class for 2 and this woman who runs the class was making out I got the wrong day, she had no phone number on her webpage and I emailed her to confirm booking and gave her my phone number and email then she was making out I didn't give her a phone number and she had no way to email me and then she up and changed the date and didn't tell me and still has not got back to me, the woman is a nutter, so to be polite I said "well, out of politeness I will take the blame for the time muck up but I thought we did set it in the day and I double checked and you didn't call me, but sorry if it is my fault because I have been very depressed since vaginal surgery and skin treatments and the plumbing emergency" and she still has not got back to me. I knew she would blame me for it you can't fight with these foreigner arab italian latino types they think we are white english/irish australian trash idiots, and I am sure she said the time and date I wrote down in my diary. I feel like I am being abused by this woman. something does not add up in a business that doesn't have a phone number and all she does is rent out commerical kitchen when she would be better running it from her home or the better place that is not surrounded with construction everywhere.

I paid for a chocolate class for 2 and this woman who runs the class was making out I got the wrong ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I often worry about our house burning down, ever since a child of 4 at my grandmothers place burning down and seeing that happen there that day and the morning aftershock pieces still smoldering I have understood depression and anxiety, I am always living in fear of it. it makes it worst when my mother says she wants to burn it down when she is angry, I take it as a serious threat of worry. she causes me panic and overwhelm.

I often worry about our house burning down, ever since a child of 4 at my grandmothers place burning...

Abuse

i have better things I want to do that look up all the prego whore slut cows asses in this place and their dirty milking pig tits and looking at dying fuckers everyday of the week. its hard to appreciate death and I just don't like people talking about it around me now, i don't want to know all I want to do is live and party, its hard to do much else when you have never been allowed to live life enough and do all the things you wanted to do, let alone wait after some fat old milking sore pig whore cow breeding or some dying duck! when no one cared about me when I was sick or needed anything.

i have better things I want to do that look up all the prego whore slut cows asses in this place and...

Abuse

i don't know why i go looking up degrees and diplomas and nursing or health because i know i don't have to confidnece to bother. 1- i am too old 2- i can't cope and i can't understand the strict demands of accreditation courses in australia in health they are all too hard which is why i dropped out of a dental course because it seemed just too complicated trying to get 100% pass rate in everything and not much teacher help or classroom time. i don't understand the marking system at tafe for certficates and diplomas and i don't want the stress of a degree and worrying about how to afford it all and cope with exams, when i have already done a degree and inbetween one anyway just in arts which is the lowests iq level you can get into cuz all the other courses are just plan too hard for dumbos like me. i don't want to pay back course debts later when i have been on disability and really just need to have a holiday and find a relationship then over trialing myself over rubbish like health and morbid courses that will only add to depress and a deep sense of failure i already have at dropping out of a business degree and so on. i dropped out of university at 24 after being assaulted wanting to find a realationship and get married but no one was interested. everytime i have tried to pass a degree someone fucks it up on me and others fuck up my plans for relationships. either way i am just not ment to win at life. no job, no money, no honey! aint no loving caring heart here! I hate this world.

i don't know why i go looking up degrees and diplomas and nursing or health because i know i don't h...

Abuse, Hate

my brother is a useless ugly lazy spoilt dickass, molesting his sisters kids, his mother and father for power gains and own kids is sick staff. his just lives in a computer game virtual world sadly.

my brother is a useless ugly lazy spoilt dickass, molesting his sisters kids, his mother and father ...

Abuse

I really don't understand what was wrong with me why I have been rejected so much in jobs and relationships and I know I am better then how I have been treated.

I really don't understand what was wrong with me why I have been rejected so much in jobs and relati...

Abuse

I really need a job and someone to help me clean and knows building ! or just move or god knows what?

I really need a job and someone to help me clean and knows building ! or just move or god knows what...

Abuse

we can't afford a holiday or cruise we can barely afford to live here. something has to change.

Abuse

ok so I have noticed a number of satanic wicca black magic events since I told ricky and royals and ken off, this is not going to be tolerated. neglect and social exclusion and isolation for your abuse punishment is not going to be tolerated against me. go fuck off! stop your abuse, the blender near electuted me then the fan went hot. so look i know its you wiccians south american shit from simplyconfess.com and ricky and royals, stop your abuse, police and medical people get told, churches get told about your wicca satanic abuse against me. just cut it out fuckers. you will end up in a amercian court allright against human rights, fuck off.

ok so I have noticed a number of satanic wicca black magic events since I told ricky and royals and ...

Abuse, Hate

oh I see now you just rubbish that business to me, and yet you run yours out of a run down old wooden shed as hot as hell for your workers who you get them to pay to actually work for you which is really something of a fraud. well excuse me !

oh I see now you just rubbish that business to me, and yet you run yours out of a run down old woode...

Abuse

Confessions about 'Bu'

have you "GOT THAT!" too?

beaching madness again, piss up as much as you always do then.

my dad knicknames himself B.L.O.B = bloody lazy old bastard , he thinks its funny and its just annoying.

my brother is a useless ugly lazy spoilt dickass, molesting his sisters kids, his mother and father for power gains and own kids is sick staff. his just lives in a computer game virtual world sadly.

I really don't understand what was wrong with me why I have been rejected so much in jobs and relationships and I know I am better then how I have been treated.

I really need a job and someone to help me clean and knows building ! or just move or god knows what?

we can't afford a holiday or cruise we can barely afford to live here. something has to change.

hey trudifruggi get off ya rooty and go a fuck your pooppy-booty

i need to wash my hair my scalp is itchy from stress

I'm just gonna blame it all on nemises and planet x theory why people are acting so crazy and insane.

oh I see now you just rubbish that business to me, and yet you run yours out of a run down old wooden shed as hot as hell for your workers who you get them to pay to actually work for you which is really something of a fraud. well excuse me !