Confessions about 'Bu'

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i have been offered a position in a research post grad but I need more money to afford to do it. so I really need a job to get the things in life I need and want. I am sick of going without things for others who never thank me anyway. I need work for a lot of reason. I just want part time work. I am thinking maybe I should go just ask for that diamond mine rather than simple things like part time work. infact I will have a few dimond mines and gold mines thanks. I m sick of waiting around here for nothing.

i have been offered a position in a research post grad but I need more money to afford to do it. so ...

Abuse, Hate

When I'm anxious, annoyed, or angry, I say, inwardly: OH F ME IN THE A GOD DAMN IT FUCKBAG. I have OCD, paranoia, and anxiety. What a great complication, right? So I'm paranoid that I didn't get something done, then I feel anxious and sometimes get anxiety attacks. I'm in seventh grade. So listen to me, bitching over here like a little kid. I sound so selfish, I think, while I reread this. Well fuck it. It's time I let loose those annoying ass feelings. So let's say I didn't do the laundry. First thoughts: "Well I'm fucked, aren't I?" What am I supposed to wear to school, poking like a fucking hobo. Yeah that's right I cuss a lot. Oh well. So then I do my laundry, fixated over the exact amount of soap I put into the washer. WELL FUCK I DIDNT DO THE DISHES. OH WELL EVERYONE GRAB A PLATE THATS DUCKING SEPTIC AND SHIT. I'm the only one that does chores in my house, the important chores anyway. I do the dishes, laundry, clean the house (all 9 rooms) dust, sweep, mop, replace light bulbs, all that shit. You know what else is great? I have breathing problems. I fell down the stairs and the corner of a setp went INTO MY FUCKING LUNGS, I almost died. Anyways, the breathing problems don't help when I get anxiety attacks.

When I'm anxious, annoyed, or angry, I say, inwardly: OH F ME IN THE A GOD DAMN IT FUCKBAG. I have...

Abuse

I'm fine! Right now, everything that could right for me, IS. And I mean EVERYTHING. I'm not going to say I don't know why. For a long time, I asked God for an amazing life, to bless me BIG. I wanted this. I ASKED for this. ANd I know some people would be freaked out by having everything going so exuberantly well for them-- but I've decided I'm not going to be. I'm going to let it roll! My life is suddenly this vast experience of amazingness. It's what I've always wanted, I'm having a blast and I'm saying yes to it! And anyone who has a problem with my being fine -can suck it!

I'm fine! Right now, everything that could right for me, IS. And I mean EVERYTHING. I'm not going to...

Abuse

i don't everybody anymore. i hate most people. and i love myself senseless.

Pride, Love, Abuse, Hate

these were like the stupid conversations rick and katy went on with. once you been burnt by some con arstists like rick and katy and joyce you learn to either play the same game or walk away. katy bashing me then kissing me and rick the same shit ? wanting threesomes, fucking mental cases. katy with her love of ricks knifes, you never fucking knew me fuckface rick and katy and joyce. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TOrnUquxtwA

these were like the stupid conversations rick and katy went on with. once you been burnt by some con...

Abuse, Hate

people never know which way I am going to turn or vote. I feel no loyalty to anyone seeing no one showed any to me. and I can be a bitch to whoever I like now! and get away with it like the dogs who abused me got away with it.

people never know which way I am going to turn or vote. I feel no loyalty to anyone seeing no one sh...

Abuse, Hate

i have such a fluid personality I copy heaps of people who have abused me from my grandmother to parents to assholes I met who were never friends. just anyone sometimes. i mean you have to get it out of your system some how !

i have such a fluid personality I copy heaps of people who have abused me from my grandmother to par...

Abuse, Hate

sometimes I copy people who have abused me, at others at their expense.

Abuse, Hate

i'm a loser cuz i didn't do drugs or get drunk all the time and was a two pot screamer, as they say. i thought the smog bong was an asthma device or lolly pop that is how naive i was. i was undercover. i just wanted to hurt everyone i could now. looking back i didn't at the time but i do now and should have gone in with that intention seeing everyone else was that way.

i'm a loser cuz i didn't do drugs or get drunk all the time and was a two pot screamer, as they say....

Abuse, Hate

all i get from my brother and sister is when asked how are you mum says is "arhrrhhhgggaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaa" so my therapist told me to do it to heaps of people back. and this is two of the finest supposed to be in marriages of bliss? I'll be the mockingbird here lost in my sarcasm and cynicism and criticalness of others and chronic backstabbing ways. i mean you can its all an act from people. that is why i am sick of people putting on their dog at me and bs.

all i get from my brother and sister is when asked how are you mum says is "arhrrhhhgggaahhhhhhhhhhh...

Abuse, Hate

i even dobbed myself in, I dobbed in family everywhere too. neighbours, schoolss, teachers, people i don't even know in music industry waving bats around. yeh I dobbed in heaps. i love dobbing in people. it make me feel good.

i even dobbed myself in, I dobbed in family everywhere too. neighbours, schoolss, teachers, people i...

Abuse, Hate

did venus or some slut blow your mind and dick when I was the stupid best friend that stuck up for all of you fuck holes?

did venus or some slut blow your mind and dick when I was the stupid best friend that stuck up for ...

Abuse, Hate

i need some money to get my flight points up or I will loose $2000 free flight fees and I am cranky cuz we dont have enough holidays and I wanted to take my mother and father somewhere in australia. we want to go see flinders rangers and the kimberly and do the ghan and princess cruisees - well a few of the princess cruises we like. next year my auntie is going with us on a cruise and I am trying to talk my nephew into coming with my parents and us. the more the merrier in the family (well what family we have left) its not like I am going to meet someone like a true love anywhere. I gave up believing that bullshit a long time ago when your as fat and old and as ugly as me with ugly red hair you learn to live without love. a begger can't be a chooser. as they say! anyway , I got so cranky I dobbed a heap of people who pissed me off to the police. and I will do it everytime things don't work out in my favor this fucking company jerked me around when dad and mum and me took a train up and back to carins when I could have got cheaper flights if the fuckin cunts had put the email in the right box and not the fucking spam box and we could have gone away for xmas as well. I spend money to use myself not just to hand over to rich rip off companies. I am not that fucking rich on a disability pension without anyone to take care of me. I have never had the luxuary of some son of a slut bastard male to take care of me! all sons of sluts. lasy bastards. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Xf-Lesrkuc Catherine Graham 1 day ago (edited) And tell me, did you fall from a shooting star One without a permanent scar And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself Na-na, na-na, na-na Na-na, na-na, na-na And did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day? And did you fall from a shooting star, fall from a shooting star? And are you lonely looking for yourself out there? great lyrics, I hope some people are left thinking that about me! they missed me cuz I got out of their way! aahaha! guys are always looking for themselves out somewhere and can't notice any nice decent woman, all those business suit bitches of men. they never looked at me once when i was young in the city. they were so busy looking for themselves. I am angry, cynical, sarcastic and flippant and can insult any goddam one I please when it suits me.

i need some money to get my flight points up or I will loose $2000 free flight fees and I am cranky ...

Abuse

my honest opinion on somethings in life, "did they need to know it was christmas time?" in africa or any of these black races that have walked over white women and white men in white culture. it seems to me the blacks like the white dollar and white upper echelons of white tradition but they have a long way to go to earn their place in it all and white people have been too stupid to not give more to their own. I mean that is why I did it to others cuz white whores did that to me. so I gave things to niggar whores over white whores. if you gonna close me out I will hurt you back! so I did and will and always will. i can mean like that. I can cut a lot of people out. I am a mean person now. there is no love left or felt in me. I don't want some niggars love. all I do is study. anyway by 2030 no jobs will be left it will be only a knowledge society so I am getting in early.

my honest opinion on somethings in life, "did they need to know it was christmas time?" in africa or...

Abuse, Hate

I am being bullied by black islander women from a church who told me i had to pay for what i did and what the pedo got me to do as a child. so I done that sentence in jail while with the pedo and now some dirty nigga slut telling me i have to pay for what i did at 8 or 10 as if i had a choice over a adult ? i am sick of their nig poop skin abuse. they are dirty. only a dirty woman would say such evil things to a victim. what are her black ass sins? her black nig fake ass smiles and canabilism and their witchy ways and more. yeh those dirty skank nigs need to be taught a lesson in manners, minding your own business and how to have respect for white people who suffered before them and came from better then their mud hunts and so called culture. they are animals and they never should have been change to white ways. it was not the white mans burden to carry the fuckers. they have no salvation. they are animals still ! no manners. dirty slut if she comes near me I will go her face and bash her! dirty old black ass nig pissface. its not hate, its just fact that the cunts are freeloading abusing animals. still insulting their betters.

I am being bullied by black islander women from a church who told me i had to pay for what i did and...

Abuse, Hate

is this long enough?

Abuse

live the hell alone I did. snakes in the bedroom a room full up to the ceiling like a pharaoh's tomb full of gifts and snakes and spiders and rats running over your head at night so you can't sleep. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sDTk-Jk297c awaken to the snakes hitting your head to awaken your third eye like I did. they bite but only they chose if they break their venom sack. they bite! the birds let me know when their around and I think think the snakes like me. be attacked in all ways and have incredible strength powers that break steal suddenly and have bats follow you and be cut and have cats scratch your face and go screaming down the hall with blood dripping over your face and see light bulbs explode when your friends are over that the ghost doesn't like you being around. and feel so much pain in your spin and brain. hope you enjoy it ! whoever did it to me, it comes back to you and away from me forever!

live the hell alone I did. snakes in the bedroom a room full up to the ceiling like a pharaoh's tomb...

Abuse, Hate

working on a new song "putting enemies into snake pits" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r1bRRkByTXg https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XW4aezW8BBQ

working on a new song "putting enemies into snake pits" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r1bRRkByTXg ...

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he lost at a empty dirty dark desk no one sees in his useless souless professions that left him in debt.

he lost at a empty dirty dark desk no one sees in his useless souless professions that left him in d...

Abuse, Hate

his fat painter who was a peeping tom stalker when I was 15 really wanted me to feel as ugly as he was in his personality and looks for some reason. I think the lesson is with him in his grave however, it isn't with me. he knows what he did wrong and his daughter and granddaughter. god is gonna show them up for what they. its got nothing to do with me, its about them.

his fat painter who was a peeping tom stalker when I was 15 really wanted me to feel as ugly as he w...

Abuse, Hate